Beating Hearts (Bisexual Love Story)

CHAPTER 15: Left Hanging

Dylan Mendoza's P.O.V. (Point of View)

Past 11PM na ng makalapag ang eroplanong aming sinakyan.

Nandito na kami ni Daddy sa San Francisco, California.

Pagkalabas ng airport ay nagantay kami ng taxing masasakyan papunta sa condong binili ni Dad, para aming matuluyan habang nananatili dito sa Cali.

Nang nakasakay na sa cab ay tahimik lang kaming dalawa ni Daddy.

Maya maya pa'y bigla nalang tumugtog ang isang kanta sa radio ng taxi...Isang malungkot na kanta...

Ang "Too hard to say goodbye" ng Westlife.

"Too hard to say goodbye" by Westlife

Everytime I close my eyes
You're all that I can see
I hold you in my heart
And know you're watching over me

Standing by your side
It felt like I could fly
If I could be half the man
That you are in my eyes
And I could face the darkest day
And fight the tears inside

I can't turn the page
Or hold back the time
It's too hard to say goodbye
It's too hard to say goodbye

From you I learned it all
You would never let me fall
Love won't come undone
Between a father and his son

Standing by your side
Felt like I could fly
If I could be half the man
That you are in my eyes
I would face the darkest day
And fight the tears inside

I can't turn the page
Or hold back the time
It's too hard to say goodbye
It's too hard to say goodbye

There will come a day
I'll have to walk alone
And I'll have to make it on my own
You taught me all there is to know
Dad, I'll never let you go

Standing by your side
It felt like I could fly
If I could be half the man
That you are in my eyes
I would face the darkest day
Fight back the tears inside

But I can't turn this page
Or hold back the time
It's too hard to say goodbye
It's too hard to say goodbye
Just can't say goodbye...

.....

Matapos ng isang malungkot na kantang iyon ay tumingin sakin si Daddy at ngumiti.

Ngumiti din naman ako pabalik, at nagyakapan kami ng mahigpit.

Isa kasi iyon sa mga paborito naming kanta ni Dad, at isa rin sa mga paborito naming banda ang Westlife.

Ang kantang iyon ay tungkol sa mag-tatay.

Kaya siguro napatingin sakin si Daddy ng ganun at niyakap ako.

Pero sa kabilang dako ay naisip ko ring ang kantang yun ay akma sa sitwasyon ko ngayon.

Sitwasyon namin ni Kenzo...

Ramdam ko ang hirap ng pamamaalam tulad nalang ng pamagat ng kanta.

Lalo pa akong nalungkot nang narinig ko ang isang line sa kanta na...

"I would face the darkest day and fight the tears inside, I can't turn the page or hold back the time. It's too hard to say goodbye!"

Masasabi kong ayan ang tamang depinisyon ng aming sitwasyon ngayon.

Ito ang bagay na mas lalong nagpaalala sakin kay Kenzo...

Simula ng lumipad kami mula sa Pilipinas ay walang oras na hindi ko siya iniisip.

Sana'y maayos lang ang kalagayan niya.....

12AM na kami nakarating ni Daddy sa condo.

Pumasok agad ako sa silid na sinabi ni Dad na aking magiging kwarto, bitbit ang aking maleta.