Seeking Love

Chapter 18

I sat in the backseat of the truck, with my grandfather. we had pulled up to the warehouse. I was breathing a little heavy had look up stare out the window at the warehouse. Grandpa grabbed a hold of my hand, i looked at him

"ready?" he ask

"no, but i have to." i ans

The truck came to a complete stop. the door opened, grandpa got out first than i got out. we walked to the big sliding door. walked inside the warehouse. lot of the members eyes widen and gasp softly as they saw him, but they were more shock to see me, that i am alive.

We went up the stairs to mother's office. Stormy and Jhalil were in her office talking looking into places where I'll be. We got to her office.

"you can stop looking." Grandpa said

they turned gasp as they saw him. Jhalil and Stormy bow their heads at him.

He stared at his daughter, saw how she looks and all.

"there's someone here to see you." he said as he turned his head.

i came around the corner and walked in, their eyes widen as they saw me saw that I'm okay and alive.

"you're okay." Jhalil said, as he practically jump in my arms, hugging me.

i raised my eye brow at him.

"uh?" i said
he let go of me stepped back

"my bad...um...sorry." he said he clear his throat

"gald to see you okay, G." he said

i had softly grin at him as i nod my head. Than i looked at my mother. saw her eyes getting watery gasping softly.

"hello mother." i said

"Niya...." she said

Stormy grab Jhalil's arm and they walked on out of the office, closing the door. mother walked around from her desk up to me. she stared at me saw my arm in a slang

"you was with your grandfather the whole time?" she ask

"no, he just found me this morning." i ans

"where were you...i looked for you." she ask

"at friend's...i know you was looking for me." i said moving away

"why...why would you do that, have us thinking you're dead." she ask

"cause I've been dead for two years mom...i never existed to you not since..." i stopped and held my head down.

"tell her, Tru." grandpa said he went to the door opened it and left on out the office, closing the door back.

"For two years I've been having the same nightmare, we made a little bet whoever gifts you like best the loser cleans up everything without any help, the limit was 3 grand...papa and i were going kinda crazy trying to find a perfect gift for you, when that guy came at us...he was trying to get the locket i was gonna give it to him."

i looked at mother as i begin to get a little teary

"i didn't want to give it to him but i was going to, than papa stopped me pushed me behind him...they fought with the gun, he told me to run so i ran, i wanted to stay help him fight but he made me ran...i blamed myself for what happened...if i just helped him or something...you was soo angry pushed me away," i con tears coming down my face

"I'm sorry okay, if i hadn't listen to him and just gave up the locket he would've still be here, the only reason why i join the crew so i can get closer to you, prove to you i wasn't useless that i was still here." i said staring at her.

mom had tears in her eyes.

"I left cause i was tired mom...tired of trying to get my mother back your love...i know you lost your best friend your husband, he was my father i miss him everyday but i never...sigh...i never thought i would lose MY best friend...my mom, i don't want this mom." i cried

she came up to me, she pulled out the locket from under her jacket

"I read your paper...what you said was true, i did blame you pushed you away and...i was wrong so wrong for that...i was mad at myself mad at your father but he was doing what he'll always do...protect our babygirl, he would do anything whatsoever for you." she said, she looked down for a moment than looked back at me.

"I shut myself out from you, you was always more closer to him than me, but i was wrong...it took me a long time to realized that i could've lost you too, i would've had to buried both of you." she sniff softly

"I got scared when doc said she hasn't seen you, i looked for you...even went to your school, even went in your room looking all over hoping to find clues to find you...i barely slept i wanted to find you, needed to find you and tell you I am soo sorry for everything for not being the mother you needed, tell you that i'm sorry for not realizing that you was hurting just as i was, you was right there when he died." she cried

she moved closer to me, stared into my eyes.

"i know you gave up on me...but please...please give me another chance, I need you Niya i need you and i know somewhere deep down you need me too." she cried, she softly place her hand on my cheek

"please, Niya." she beg

i sniff softly, i grabbed a hold of my strap and pulled it off from around my shoulder looked at mom and wrapped my arms around her. she held me tight in her arms holding the back of my head

we stood there in each others arms for a long time, i warm tingle flood my entire body, this was what i was yearning for...my mother.