MINK (SOFT & WILD)

It Feels Terrible

"What we think we deserve is different from what others think we deserve."

FELIZA'S POV

"Everyone, my successor is no other than, MANJOE MERKEL LABRADOR!
Enjoy the rest of the evening! Cheers!"

"What the fox said?!"
- Danilo

"Anak ng peste!"
- Crystal

"Damn, Fùcking fůcker!"
-Henry

"Gagōng matanda na
uugod-ugod!"
- Salvo

"So horrible!"
- Brandon

"It's alright. ..it's alright, Honey. It's alright."
-Emerson

Shock. Anger. Hurt. Distrust. Hatred. Lost. Unworthy. Helpless. Hopeless. Upset. Betrayed. Despair. Dejected. Downcast. Somber. Glum.

'Yan ang naghahari sa kalooban ko. 'Yan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.

Why?
Why did they do this to me!

Ito na lang!
Ito na lang ang sa tingin ko'y tanging abot kamay ko sa lahat ng pangarap ko.
But they took it away from me!

Ang masakit, pinagkaisahan nila ako!
Pinaasa!

How terrible!

I felt betrayed and it kills.
It felt like someone drove a dagger through my heart.

Ang masaklap, kadugo ko pa ang gumawa nito sa akin.
Mismong Lolo ko pa!

The person I thought I could trust just stepped on my heart.
Ang taong inakala kong lubos ang tiwala sa kakayahan ko, ang taong inakala kong pinapahalagahan ang future ko ay siya rin palang magdulot ng matinding kabiguan sa akin.

It feels terrible. It feels like they throw away my emotions and step on my soul. It's even worse than having a direct enemy. No! This is worse!

I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to throw things at them. It hurts a lot.

Parang gusto kong lumubog sa kinauupuan ko habang pinapanood ang Lolo ko na nakikipagkamay kay Labrador.

Hindi nga ba't ako dapat ang nasa posisyon ng lalaking 'yon?
Ginawa nila akong tanga!

Mas lalong sumidhi ang sakit at sama ng loob ko nang marinig ko ang bulung-bulongan ng mga tao.
Na para bang wala ako doon at tila sinadya pang iparinig sa akin ang pagkaawa, pagkagulat, pagtataka, pagkadismaya at 'yong iba ay parang ikinatutuwa pa ang nangyari.

Getting passed over for the position I really wanted is really disheartening and even humiliating whether I really deserved the position or were promised it by my Grandpa.

Something entitled to me has been "stolen" away.

The raging torrent of anger and perhaps a sense of unfairness at being passed over "after all I've done" is invading my whole being right now.

It's pretty sad. Walang kapantay!
Hindi katanggap-tanggap lalo na at kay Manjoe pa talaga ibinigay.

Bakit hindi na lang sa isang distant relative or kahit na sinong executive na nag-alay ng dedikasyon sa kompanya
for years?

"We cannot change what has happened. Getting angry and depressed will not get you another promotion, Feliza. Hayaan mo na. There are always reasons, even if they aren't justified. Your Grandpa is a great businessman. Alam niya ang ginagawa niya."
Pang-aalo ni Brandon sa akin.