Another Myth

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So many million thoughts can run through your mind.

But, it's so hard to remember any of it.

Though, it may be good...

For all you know, those thoughts could be negative.

Then again, maybe you can remember every single thoughts that run through your mind.

Especially the negative ones.

Ah your mind is never a good place.

When you want to think of all the good things, you can't do it.

When you don't need those negative thoughts, it's always there.

It's frustrating.

But, do me a favor.

Don't let the negativity consume you.

I won't blame you if it happens because most of the time, you can't control it.

Because, you can sometimes drown in your own negativities without knowing.

...Truthfully, I shouldn't have any emotions.

Aren't I just a spirit?

But, I do.

That's what makes me so different from other spirits.

I wonder, why that happened but it can't be answered because even if I want to know, some things can't be answered or controlled.

I don't like having emotions.

I might be rational but really, I want to blame someone and punch them several times.

It's so hypocritical of me to tell you to not drown in your negativities when I am too.

I hide so many things behind my smile.

Behind my sarcasm, there's actually just sarcasm.

Gosh, people annoy me.

Maybe...even if you can't see it, I'm already drowning in my negativities.

Giving into those negative thoughts.

I'll probably turn into something evil created by my thoughts.

Humans must have it harder.

There's people all around you.

Pressuring you to become better.

Because sometimes, they can't handle seeing you.

Or sometimes, it hurts seeing you like that.

Or maybe, both.

Though, how can you always become better?

Sometimes, even time doesn't solve anything.

It's so hard understanding all of this.

If I try to explain it all, it makes no damn sense.

This is sad.

A spirit talking about such things.

...I don't even understand what I said anymore...