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Sleep

It hurts

It hurts so much

and I can feel the pain

coursing through my entire body

but still

still I am held silent

and I want to run away

and I want someone to hold me

and to tell me that everything is alright

but it's not

and there is no one left to care

and there is no one left to tell

and I am all alone with the monster I once called Daddy

My bones hurt inside

My skin is stained with bruises

My head is scraped with the words I want to scream

Please

Let me go

Leave me alone

Stop hurting me

But he won't

And everytime I see his shadow

I flinch

And everytime I smell the drink on his breath

I start to cry

Why can't he leave me alone?

Why can't he let me go?

I just want to sleep

In a place where I feel safe

But I can't do that here

Why?

Why?

I can feel warm tears on my face

I can feel the sobs stuck in my throat

All I want is to sleep

just sleep

and maybe someday

I will

But right now I am held awake

by the rough hands of the one who once loved me

and I know it will be a long time

before I can finally sleep