Chapter 43
Aimee's P.o.V.
The next day my parents and the doctor are talking but I can't read lips I don't know what are talking about for sure. I feel so tired so helpless and I still haven't recovered from my break down yesterday.
Then the nurse walks into the room with a something that looks like a laptop puts it on my lap. The computer is smaller that normally and have a weird microphone attached to it but when something appear on the screen I know its somehow convert what the doctor says into sentences for me to read.
-Aimee, I am your doctor and it nice to see you awake.
Suddenly more words appear on the screen and I know it my mom cause she is beside me now and holds my hand.
-Aimee I love you so much. It's gonna be okay sweetie.
Something about not hearing my mom's voice when she is comforting me makes me wanna cry once again.
-As I was talking with your parents I know how scared you must be to not hear anything. To put it simple the bullet did a big damage but there is still something we can do.
-We will do anything to make this better for my little girl.
I know these words were said by daddy cause only he calls me little girl. It makes me want to smile and cry at the same time.
- The operation has 40% which is better that nothing to restore Aimee's hearing maybe not fully but she will be able to hear if the operation is a success. It will not be a life-threatening operation and we will know if Aimee can hear for sure only after we will operate. The choice is Aimee's whether she wants this operation or not cause she is viewed as an adult in this state.
40% per cent is not 100% but it is better than nothing. But can I really do this operation? I know the doctor said it is not life-threatening but can I live with disappointment when I wake up and still not hear anything?
I don't know I don't know anything I just want to sleep and never wake up.
Jace's P.o.V.
I thought that all of our worries will be gone as soon as Aimee opened her beautiful eyes but it clearly didn't happen.
The memory of Aimee sobbing and shaking so hard that at some point she started to have problem with breathing and the doctor didn't see any way out but to sedate her so she could relax and forget the reality for a few hours at least makes it hard to breathe. I never want to see that again.
My heart hurts and I feel numb because seeing someone you love, truly care about going through pain it just kills you, slowly. I feel like someone is squeezing my heart and have no intention to let it go any time soon.
The next morning I'm at her door once again and I am gonna make sure that she knows that I not leaving her and that she will never be alone.
Suddenly I hear her screaming and I rush to her side. When I see that her eyes are closed I realized that she is having a dream, a very bad dream or maybe even a memory.
Wasting no time I start to shake her and slowly Aimee is opening her eyes. The deepness in them makes me wanna hold her and never let go.
"Aimee.." I start but stop when I see once again her eyes filling with tears. She still can't hear me.
Aimee's P.o.V.
I know I am dreaming I know that, but it doesn't stop the fact that I can't seem to wake up. He is there once again but this time I am facing him. His eyes are cold and he is holding a gun at me. He doesn't say anything but I hear a click and I am down... I scream and scream but he is still there with a sinister smile on his face.
Someone is shaking me and finally I can open my eyes. What I see is the most beautiful eyes I see. It's Jace's eyes.
I see his mouth moving but I can't hear him and its killing me inside. He doesn't need a deaf girlfriend he deserves so much more. My thoughts makes me wanna cry and never stop.
And then just like that I am in his arms. He doesn't try to say anything more he just holds me. I don't know if it's been 5 minutes or 5 hours when he finally pulls away. I miss his warm the moment he is not close to me.
Then he closes the distance between us and kisses me. His lips never felt this warm as now. He kisses me slowly as if he is trying to worship my lips. He says something against my lips, something that feels like "I Love you" and not knowing for sure I can't help but let a few tears roll down my cheeks.
I start to shake my head, pushing him away seems right thing to do. I don't know why but I can't, I just can't right now. So I say two words that I never thought I would say to Jace.
"Please leave." I don't know even if I said them right not hearing what you say is hard and makes me angry at myself so I just hope I said it right and clear. Looking at Jace I know I said them right cause the expression on his face is heartbreaking. I need to stay strong I need to do this even if my heart is breaking into a thousand pieces.
Jace starts to open his mouth once again but I start to shake my head and look at the door cause I can't look at him.
Once again I feel like time stopped but when the door I look at is being opened my Jace I know he made the right choice. I look away from the door and see a notebook and a pen near my bed on the (bed table?) its open and the words makes the tears I try to hold in fall faster than ever before.
-I will always love you even when you can't-
He doesn't understand that I love him still and I don't think I ever stop. I don't care that I am only 18 and some people may think I am too young to know real love. With Jace it is real it was real.
Slowly I take the pen and write one sentence before I finally lie down and cry myself to sleep. People say you can't cry forever and they are right cause at some point exhaustion takes over and you fall asleep. But I know as soon as I wake up the tears will be back.
-I will always love you even when I shouldn't-
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Sabina xxx
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