After a brief chat with Mrs.Beatriz I make my way down the hall. She wants to see me Saturday morning, and its Thursday today. Im grateful she didnt make me train now. I have stuff to do and I think she noticed. I want to go to Willows dorm but I don't want to risk running into Killijan. I decide to go home first and talk to Zeris. Guilt swells deep in my gut.
I open the door to my door. I see Zeris leaning over the dining table.
"Zeris?" I call, my voice cracking. I feel my heart quicken as he swivles around.
Anger swirls in his eyes and he stands to meet me.
"I'm sorry-"
He walks toward his room.
"Zeris talk to me!" I demand. He turns to face me.
"Why would you-Roan I liked you. I liked you a lot. I've never liked anyone before"
"Liked?"
"As in past tense. As in you don't like me anymore?"
"No"
His words make me tremble. I know he knows what I did.
"Zeris let me explain"
"No why should I? I obviously mean nothing to you right?"
I swallow hard.
"You're not my girlfriend. I'm not your boyfriend, we kissed a few times. That means nothing. You should be free to do whatever you want" He sounds like he's trying to convince himself of his own words. His voice becomes louder.
"He kissed me Zeris! I didn't want..."
"I like you too. I like you a lot Zeris. Please-"
"Why would you even do that to Willow? Didn't you know she liked him? I don't care if you two are fighting and you did that to get back at her or something but whatever it is just leave me out of it" With that he storms out of the open door.
"Oh and whatever this is, its over" he adds.
I'm frozen for what seems like a decade. I process all of his words.
Will.
I hear Aussie barking from behind my closed door. I sprint through the hallways ignoring him. I hear my heart in my ears, sliding to a stop in front of Willows door. I knock on the square of wood.
"Will? Will!"
The door opens with a creek.
"Ugh, what do you want?" Troy scoffs.
His words bounce off of me.
"Willow. I need to talk to Willow" I pant.
"She's barricaded herself in her room. Won't talk to anyone. You must've done something really messed up"
I push past him.
"Will?" I stomp up the white glass stairs and knock on the purple door I know is hers.
"Go away" Says a sad voice along with a few sobs.
"What kind of friend are you anyways!" She adds.
"It wasn't...I like Zeris Willow. I don't care about Killijan. He's just my training partner. He kissed me and I pushed him away" I explain.
"I don't know if I can beleive that" She sniffles.
"Why does no one beleive my freaking side of the story!" I throw my arms in the air.
"Willow?" Killijan voice says. I turn to see him at her door. My cheeks go red when he looks at me. He looks embarrassed. Critically so. I look at the wall in front of me. This is so pointless. I came here to learn magic, not this.
"Willow, Roan's telling the truth. I kissed her when I shouldn't have. I know she likes the water head-"
"Hey" I interrupt.
"But I was an ass and did it anyways. Forgive her Willow...please forgive her. She didn't do anything wrong"
"Really?"
"Yeah" We both say at once. I hear the door click open and Willow faces us.
"You are an ass" She laughs, tears streaming down her face still. I give her a hug and sense Killijan leave. She invites me in and locks the door.
"Roan...I'm so sorry...i.."
"You told Zeris" I finish for her. She nods, looking at the floor.
"I hope I didn't ruin whatever was happening between you.."
And whatever this is its over...
I never liked you...
I shake the memories away.
"I don't have time for this. I need to train. So do you. We're mages, we don't have time to cry about boys. If they don't want us then F them"
A smile flashes on her lips and she changes into training clothes.
Stay balanced. Stay focused. Stay safe.
Stay balanced. Stay focused. Stay safe.
Mr.Cobas teaching rings in my head. She's on the side of the arena I'm normally on and I imagine this is what Killijan feels like when he is about to fight me. She sends the first attack. Rocks fly at me from what seems like no where. I quickly deflect them, sending them back towards Willow. She ducks with a squeel of terror. I throw myself into the fight. I use all of the moves Mr.Coba showed me earlier today and make my own notes.
Willow keeps her feet planted as a stable base to bend from. All I have to do is break the base and everything else will crumble. It was harder at first, I wasn't used to her battle style.
"You're not bad" She tells me. We stopped to take a break.
"Neither are you" I tell her, even though she lost four times a row.
"I'm sorry about you and Zeris"
I shrug and tell her I haven't thought about it much but that's a lie. It's all I've been thinking about for the past two hours. I want him to forgive me. I feel like there's something missing with me right now. I feel vulnerable and afraid for him. He's angery. So so angry...
"It's not that big of a deal. I'm upset and all but I can't force him to forgive me. I've been doing just fine without him" I say hafl hazardly.
"Roan? Roan I'm talking to you!"
"What? Yeah I'm listening" I mumble, my head spinning.
"Roan? Are you okay?" Her voice echoes.
"Roan wake up. You need to drink this" An eerily familiar voice says.
"Polly?" I stutter.
"Drink" She hands me a mug.
"No slop today?" I say with a grunt. She sriffles a laugh and helps me sit up. The cup steams and my head feels foggy.
"Your dehydrated. Whens the last time you had something to drink?" She presses. I press my lips to the chocolate mixture. I glance at the skylight, noticing its dark.
"Hey, are you alright?" She asks, stroking my hair.
"Boy drama I guess. All I want to do is go back to training. That's why I came here right..."
"Your a seventeen year old girl, boy drama will happen where ever you are"
"Can I go back to my bed?" I ask, shifting on the uncomfortable but familiar mattress.
"I think it best for you to stay here tonight. At least you'll get some peace and quiet"
"But...Aussie" I mutter-my eyes drooping.
