Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
January 23,2023
This month started with my groggy brain and body. I mean, who wouldn't? The fireworks and noise still live inside of my brain.
There was a time when the fireworks made an extremely loud noise that even made me lost for an hour.I remember there's a vivid memory of me being in a dangerous situation, the loud noise of a gunshot, which is still blurry to me, and you know what's insane? Me begging for forgiveness?
Until now I'm still losing sleep because of those memories that keeps triggering me. That's why I'm groggy. I really hate noise of all types of celebration. I don't know why...Maybe because of what happened, until now it is still lingering on my mind.
It keeps bothering my head; I'm afraid I wouldn't even finish CopeBot because of this.I'm afraid that once I had a vivid vision that triggered memories, my brain wouldn't be able to accept and process it as well...I also hope I will be alright as well.
The accident that happened to me was a year ago; supposedly it was already settled. But why don't my past memories stop haunting me?
If this is just a temporary amnesia? Why are the memories still bothering me, randomly?
Now that I have that type of memory that keeps appearing, I guess I really should delay developing the CopeBot for a while...
What's important right now is for me to learn the truth first. I know that everyone's mental health is important... But how can I help them when I myself can't figure out anything about my past either?
This needs to be settled; maybe it's time for me to enlist the assistance of experts. It's hard to do this because I never imagined myself trying to get help from a psychologist, but this situation where I am right now? This isn't normal; I really need help...
On the other hand, there is no ignoring when there is ongoing discomfort, lingering fear, and split memories. Ignoring them would not be of help to my own mental health and may cause harm to myself. Getting professional assistance is a sign of strength and demonstrates my willingness to face my difficulties head-on... It is not a sign of weakness.
That is why I'm planning to free my schedule during Friday, since I have no face-to-face class by then as well. Maybe I should think of myself first before trying to help others.
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Author's Note: Last 4 chapters of DOAP, and we'll be ending soon! What do you think really happened with Vera? And what are those blurry memories that triggered her? Just keep reading, and you'll soon find out. ^^
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