No I do not wish to die,
but I do want to not feel the rollercoaster of life while I am riding on it
I wish to be numb and to not feel a thing
to have a body but no emotions
to just sit and be left alone with myself
to never cry a single tear
or crack a single smile
No it's not death that I wish for
It's numbness that I beg for
It's the pain that I long to be without
It's the freeness that I crave
Free to live without feeling a thing
Without feeling pain
but depriving myself of happiness
because no I do not deserve it
and no it is not death that I wish upon myself
that'd be me taking an easy way out huh?
