Save me (Phan)

Chapter 2

This ray of exceedingly bright light seemed to illuminate everything around me, and I dared to open my left a eye the slightest bit. Ouch, it burned... And my head throbbed. My body ached. I felt like death, so this was just another average morning for me.

I passed out on the kitchen floor again last night, for about the 4th night in a row. Ah well, at least I managed to get some sleep, I guess.

Deciding it would be a wise choice to take some aspirin, I lured myself off the cold hard ground and trudged to the medicine cabinet. 2 aspirins will do for now. I swallowed them with a small glass of tap water, and began to search for my phone.

"Oh god, I probably shattered it or it ended up in china or something..." I mumbled, realizing what my drunken actions could lead up to.

I ended up locating my phone on a plate next to a slice of half-eaten pizza on my bedroom floor. Oh, how cute. I don't even know how... Whatever. I didn't even bother questioning my drunken actions anymore.

Apparently I had two unseen messages from Chris, that I received about an hour ago when I was still passed out. It was now 11:30am so it's not like he texted me dangerously early. I just overslept.

"Hey PJ and I wanted to know if you could hang out tonight... Maybe we could see a film?" I read the message aloud in a hushed whisper.

I quickly responded to him with "sure!" because its not like a had any other plans, or even anyone else to really chill with. I figured it'd be nice to see two of my only friends again, but I always still felt so alone in the end.

The people that I had kept me going, definitely, but I was still lacking that one person. That one person that meant everything to me. I hope he's out there, somewhere. I probably don't even know him yet, but I won't give up until I find him.

It gives me butterflies when I think of how that perfect someone might really be out there for me. It gave me hope, too. I really needed more of that, though. Giving up is not something I want to do. I want to be happy, and being with the man of my dreams would make me happier than anything. A lot of people say that there's someone out there for everyone, and it's one of your duties as a human being to find that person. I believe that in a way, but I'll only truly believe it if I find that person.

I suddenly remembered I had to finish editing the new video I was gonna upload for the week. It'd probably be a good idea to get that done since I still had time before Chris and PJ picked me up.

I really loved what I was doing though, with YouTube. Making videos made me forget about all of life's crappy twists and turns for a while. Plus, having fans who supported me and loved me made me feel less alone. I'd sometimes run into a few of them here and there while simply going out to get food, go shopping, and stuff like that. They were all really nice people, and they actually made me feel somewhat important and needed in this world.

Just as I added the finishing touches to my new video, I heard a knock on the door. I quickly saved my completed video, and set my laptop aside to go answer the door. Chris and PJ came into view as I opened the door and let them in. That's when I noticed that they had Becky and Jessica with them as well.

"Well hello, I was only expecting half of you", I greeted, trying my best to sound sarcastic and cheery so they wouldn't question my mood.

"Surprise surprise!" Jessica exclaimed. Her hand was tightly holding onto PJ's, and I couldn't help but notice it.

I half-smiled at her, which was the most I could muster at this point in time. Knowing I was going to be the biggest third-wheel ever this entire evening wasn't something I was exactly looking forward to.

"Alright you happy couples, I guess we should get going" I sighed, motioning for them to step out the door first so I could lock it behind me.

We made it into the parking lot, and all piled into Chris' car. After all we were going to see Scary Movie 5, which would probably make me laugh a bit at least to get my mind off things. I should be fine as long as I don't dare to look over to the two perfect couples I was with, so that I didn't have to try and deal with them whispering cutely to each other, kissing, touching a bit, and whatever else.

Maybe you'll find some adorable, perfect lad that's all alone at the cinema. And then you can go talk to him, get his number, take him home, and go fuck and live happily ever after, the voice in my head said.

This actually made me chuckle a bit. What if that actually happened? How crazy would that be?

Sorry this is so short! I'll update later in the week, probably. I seriously don't know if I like this fic though.. bleh. There will be a shitstorm of new drama and stuff in the next few chapters though, so look forward to that. Also let me know if you like this fic so far, cause I just, I don't know. But yeah.