From one proxy to another proxy [Ticcimask]

Chap. 3: These Bloody Thoughts

Toby narrates

A few weeks ago Masky yelled at me just because i called him by his name, i didn't get why he acted like that, so i decided to talked to Hoodie.

It wasn't easy get information but i did it.

After Masky started working for the Operator he got a girlfriend, in secret.

Her name was Ann, she was a nurse, a pretty girl full of joy when she had to pretend to be a normal person, according to Hoodie.

Masky and Ann were together for so long, in secret, he really loved her.

But their relationship ended as soon as the Operator found out and ordered Masky to eliminate that distraction. He refused.

Ann didn't.

She had decided that she didn't want to be with him anymore. Masky's heart was completely broken, he couldn't understand why she accepted such a thing. He kept trying.

Everyday he tried to convince her, but she wouldn't give in. That frustrated him.

One day she got tired of too much insistence and left. It took so much time for him to get over it...

But he did.

He doesn't talk about her and i never heard him saying her name.

Hoodie thinks she used him, that she was around him just because she was bored. He never trusted her. Also had so many fights with Masky trying to make him realize it.

The whole story was unbelievable to me, so i went to Masky. I wanted to know more and from his mouth.

Finally i found him, smoking as usual.

—Mask...

—Leave.

—No.

He turned to me, i never disobeyed him but today wasn't the day.

—What the hell do you want?

—I want you to talk to me about something...someone.

—If this is about the Operator no—he brought his face close to mine and blew the cigarette smoke into my face— Piss of.

—I want to know about her.

He looked me in the eyes.

—Fuck you.

—Tell me about Ann.

—Go fuck yourself!

—Do you...do you miss her?

He grabbed me by my clothes and accidentally broke my little necklace but he didn't notice. I closed my eyes waiting for his fist, it never came so i opened them again.

—Don't stick your nose—he was angry.

—I need to know...

—Why?!

—Because...because you...

—I don't care, just...

—Because you are my friend!

—Ha, friends? You are not my friend—he was still grabbing my clothes and brought me closer, our foreheads could touch— Your friendship is insignificant to me, i don't want to live with you and i don't care about your existence. You are a pain in the ass. I'd never be friends with someone that stupid and useless—he gave me a little push.

I was speechless, my throat was burning, i actually wanted to cry.

—And why the hell Hoodie told you all that?!

I turned my back ready to leave.

—Hey don't ignore me! —i didn't answer, just left.

I left the cabin, the woods, went straight to the city.

I'm not gonna cry.

You are not going to affect me Masky.