SIDNAAZ ( An Unforgettable Journey)

61. Hurt Hua Hai

Sana was breaking down but she didn't want to show any emotions. She was then showered with questions and she replied to all of them with all her will. After her interview questions were over, which felt more like an interrogation, it was Sid's turn to face the questions. He was first asked about his aggression and fights with the rest of the housemates. 

Intv- Sidharth aapki Shehnaaz ke saath jo dosti hai kya wo bahar jaake bhi rahegi ya bas ek game perspective tak hi hai ye?

Sid- See agar aapne biggboss ache se follow kiya hua hai toh you should be knowing ki mein Shehanaaz se shyd har ek reason se baat kar lu, use dosti rakh lu but game perspective se kavi nahi...naa hi mujhe usse game related koi expectations hai aur na hi koi mein game-related usse kuch kabhi baat kiya hu. 

Intv- Sidharth mera ye sawaal hai ki aap Arti se jab baat karte hai aap unse kaafi maturely baat karte hai unse sab apna dukh sukh share karte hai aur apne ye bhi kaha hai ki Sana bahut immature hai aapke saath ke liye toh kya agar aapko choice mile Arti aur Sana ko chunne ki toh aap Arti ko hi chunenge as you have always did in this house.

Sana didn't know why but this question pierced her heart. 

Sid- It was a long time ago when mujhe Sana ke baare m zyada kuch pata nahi tha but I don't think Sana is immature.

Sana (in mind)-Arti aur Sana ke beech chunne bole toh kisse chunega iska jawaab ese ignore maar raha hai...chod Sana overthink matt kar uske paas shayad reasons honge but mujhe bahut takleef ho rahi hai. I am not okay here. Aur ye kaise interviewers hai yaar mere ko puche toh bas yahi puche ki kya aap jhuthi ho, kya aap player ho kya ap sidharth ko use kar rahe ho aur Sidharth ko bhi mere kamiyon ke baare m puche jaa raha hai. Mein sabse galat hu kya is ghar m? Aur mein Arti se zyada immature hu? Ye Sid avi nahi keh sakta ye bahut pehle kaha hoga

Intv- Toh jese Shehnaaz ko pucha gaya ki kya wo aapka istemaal kar rahi hai kya wo apke hashtag ko popular karne kar rahe hai? Aapko kya lagta hai? Kya Shehnaaz se aapki dosti aapko mehengi saabit ho rahi hai

Sid- see I can't tell what's in her mind, mein apne actions aur emotions ke liye accountable hu...mein calculations karke dosti nahi karta ki mujhe uski dosti mehengi pad rahi hai ya nahi. Jo hoga dekh lenge but mere side se ye hashtags and all kuch mayne nahi lagte bas hai ab ek bond toh hai.

Sana was hurt with his reply, with his reply of only giving himself a clean slate as if he is unsure what's her real motives are.

Intv- Shehnaaz kuch kehna chaahenge?

Sana- Toh ye jo hashtag hai SidNaaz ye usiliye bana hai kyunki hum ekathe the i mean saath hai saath dikhte hai tab hi ye bana hoga na toh ye toh humne nahi banaya humein wo chiz baad m pata chali toh phir hum jaan bujh ke kaise kar sakte hai usse use?

Sid noticed how she boldly said "we" instead of "I". 

BB- Ghar pe aye huye press ko dher saari subhkaamnayein ek successful press conference execute karne ke liye. Avi aapke hisaab se kaun vijeta hai Royal Elite ke akhri aur teesri member ki aap log decide kar lijiye.

All interviewers voted for Rashmi, so Rashmi, Asim and Sidharth are the three royal elite members who have a golden opportunity to not perform one task and be safe for that whole week without even performing any tasks. 

Everyone clapped and the press went outside the house. Sana went towards the washroom area hurriedly, she didn't want to talk to anyone right now. All the questions, allegations, Sid's cold behaviour since morning, his conversation with Arti and him not trusting her over that false statement. She was badly bothered with these questions in her mind. She didn't want to cry or to breakdown. She felt bad she felt awfully worst. She came after sometime seating in the luggage area.

Rashmi- Kya hua baby? Tu itni udaas kyu hai?

Sana- Ye mere liye nahi bana hai shayad Rashmi...ye duniya shayad mere liye nahi hai.

Rashmi-baby ye toh shuruwat hai teri, shuruwaat m sabko ese lagta hai par tune sab questions ko kitne ache se tackle kiya hai na toh fir kyu ese soch rahi hai?

Sana- Pata nahi kya hi soch rahi chod fir aayega ki Rashmi ke aage dukhde ro rahi hai

Rashmi- aare aane de kyu fikar kar rahi hai tu uska

Sna takes a deep breath to compose herself.

Sana- Wese congratulationns tu jeet gayi mein bahut khush hu tere liye. (she gave a warm hug to Rashmi)

Rashmi- Chal bahar chal 

Sana- mein aati hu thodi der m...

Rashmi-Kyun akele bethegi? Shukla ko bheju?

Sana- Arre nahi mein chal rahi baahar bas kuch time baad aati hu

Rashmi then went from there in search of Sidharth who was talking to Arti in the kitchen.

Rashmi- Tujhe jahan hona chahiye tu wahan kabhi kyun nahi hota?

Sid- Kyunki omnipresent tum ho. Rashmi Desai is everywhere. Mein toh bas maamuli sa Sidharth Shukla hu mein kahan aapke jese sahi chiz sahi waqt pe karr pata hu. DEVI ho aap toh

Rashmi- Hogaya? Kar liya bakwaas?

Sid- Nahi avi baaki hai

Rashmi- Sana ke paas jaa she needs you

Sid didn't take a second to fasten his footsteps towards the luggage area. The sight in front of him broke him. Shehnaaz was crying silently, hiding her tears and struggling to maintain her composure. Her shoulders shook with suppressed sobs, she was contiously wiping her tears away as to being or show herself strong. Sid's heart ached as he moved closer, his mind racing to find the right words to comfort her, knowing that nothing he said could truly ease her pain in that moment.

Sid- Sweetheart?

Sana didn't replied but his voice has the warmth which she was longing from the morning which made her sobs a bit audible and her shoulders shooked frantically. Sid went and put his palms on her back to make her face him. 

Sid- Sweetheart kyu itna ro rahi hai bataa na?

Sana- Ab kyu aaya hai? Jaa na Arti ke paas wo toh kaafi matured hai na aur haan tujhe toh ye bhi lagta hai ki meine wo sab kaha tha tereko leke, Biggboss nahi bolte toh tu shayad believe hi nahi karta merepe pata nahi ab bhi kar raha hai ya nahi. Mere pe sawaal uthe toh mein tera istemaal kar rahi hu aur tujhe questions ayenge ki mein nasamaz hu tu kaise sambhalta hai...har do jagah m mein kese galat hu yaar...itni v kya kardiya hai meine...use...flip...jhoothi...cheat sab hun mein hi? Mere itne hafton se ye clear nahi hai ki mein ye kuch nahi hu? Toh fir mein yahan kyun hu? Aur ye sab baat toh chod chal jaane de mera purana rishta hai press conferences se. Hamesha mein galat hoon. Chalo maan liya. Kal raat humara itna pure emotion tha itna beautiful moment  tha par pata nahi kya hogaya hai tujhe tu subha se mujhe ek baar seedhe muh baat tak nahi karri. Aur ab karna bhi matt kyunki mein nahi karungi. Mera hogaya bas ab. tum sabhi paak log mein paap ka dariyaa hu mujhe jaane do. Mein niklu yahan se ye mere liye nahi bana hai ye sab.

Sid let her express everything she was feeling but he noticed she was getting all worked up at the end so he just didn't want to make things more worse so he hugged her from the back. Then he pulled her to face him and then hugged her properly. She silently cried for sometime when he was just rubbing her back. Then she realized that she is again melting with his cute gestures but this time she needed him to communicate so, she slightly pushed his chest to break the hug and then sternly said

Sana- Not this time...mujhe hurt kiya hai tune Sidharth

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