I don't know what brought this feeling on but I know that it's eating away at me kind of like a sad love song
To feel like I am not complete enough to become a wife and yes there is more important things in the world than being married and having your name changed and getting into that segment of life
But I feel empty like I'm not worthy of it
And that sounds silly because I've never been one in the first place yet here I am taking care of myself and someone else who I have on a high standard and it's me being stuck in the same spot
I don't know what I can say except say it a lot but I feel like that I'm never going to have that complete homeless and I know I need myself to be whole as I have learned in time to love myself when no one else did but to have love from someone else matters so much more to me than anyone could understand
It makes me feel like I'm not Aland I just want to be happy in the long run but it just seems like I never get to I have moments of happiness and they last very little
So why am I sitting here feeling like I don't deserve it I don't be a wife I don't deserve to be in this life I don't deserve to be loves I am a giver naturally but I feel like what I give isn't given back I pour it out what isn't poured into me and it makes me upset
Silly little problems have silly little solutionso why would I feel like if I have what I need to what I want would that make me feel complete?
With this hole in my chest go away even though I know there's not much to say but I'm in this era of I just want to be someone's and not even really just girlfriend anymore I want to explore I want to have what's waiting for me and more
But it seems so hard to get what I want so I stop asking and I succumbed to my silence
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PoezieThis is my poetry and many more to come. thank you for reading . If you feel what I do, then I know it's real. "All poetry is written by me , do not take something and don't give credit for!"
