me a 13 year old living in a world I don't understand my life is very toxic I have mom who cares about she alone n how she feels n not how I feels n my relative always pick up for her no matter what while I am here jus planing to kill my self cz no one will miss me is jus more better to be dead than alive to me rn I write these stuff on whatpad for comfort cz it let me express my feelings although I know that the r foolish n short I am person like I am becoming to think that is more better off to stay bye my self than talk to ppl i use to tell my mom stuff but she can't keep her mouth close no matter the situation if its about me she will tell a lot of ppl n how does that make me feel as a person I am try to be better at writing these stuff shoo it maybe come to use n let me remember wht life is like although ppl maybe do not read them r not my life is jus very difficult to deal with my friends wht I have at skl tell me the bond wht they have with there parents n me as a person which I had that bond with my parents while my parents jus care about there other kids who they live with soo I am the odd one out my mom have a son who is her world same with my dad he has too kids who is his world I am jus not apart of there family I am a disgrace n a mistake to them most time I take pleasure to burn my self I don't know the reason why but I do it I wish I had some one to express my feelings to 20 4 7 soo I would fell more better but I do not my mom say how it would more better off if I was adopted , suwisidal etc this wht I could share tdy I hope u read it I know I make a lot of mistake n error but I am trying my best at the moment
