Riley

Close The Door

I've built four walls 

So high no one can see 

What's going on inside of them 

Not even the girl who hurt me 

Just what she wanted 

I've gotten used to being quiet 

So quiet you could hear a pin drop 

Because she cut my tongue out 

Just because I made mistakes when I was young 

And I realized the hard truth 

She might have sent me into the oblivion 

Brought me back through the portal just to blame me 

For things that I never actually did 

So I take a look out into the sun 

See myself smiling before I see the eternal 

As I take a deep breath 

And I close the door 

Everything used to seem so clear 

She came and saw me and solved my fears 

I saw how happy she was and tried harder 

But she returned and threatened my life 

Because somehow I took her place 

I used to be so scared to even go home 

Afraid of the horrors I would witness inside 

Know that nobody liked me, I was so alone 

And I thought that she would see the pain 

But I realized that only she suffers 

She might have sent me down to hell 

Brought me back up to Earth just to blame me

For things that I never actually did  

And she laughed in my face when things happened 

But what good will it ever do 

If we reopen old, healed up wounds 

So I take a look out as the rain comes down 

See myself smiling before I see the storm calm down 

As I take a deep breath

And I close the door 

I used to think that we could become friends later 

But I know that you'll bring me down even further 

Not give me the chance to do what I need to do 

But I shouldn't need to do anything because there's nothing to prove 

You're just the type of person I'm okay to lose 

Because you did nothing but blame me for things that bothered you 

And I know that there were days where I made a mistake 

But remember I was young and those were the old days 

Maybe it's time that you give your wordings a little break 

You can call me all of these nasty names but I won't change 

I had to take time to understand that you'll never change 

Because there's no reason to reopen the healed wounds 

So I take a look out in the mirror 

See myself before I see you 

And so I take a deep breath

And close the door