Eunoia • Book Three

Overthinking

I'm scared, overthinking has gotten the best of me.
I'm scared of waking up one day, with a smile.
And there's the unpredicted yet expected words.

I'm scared that you'll leave, you promise you wouldn't.
You've reassured me but,
Overthinking has gotten the best of me.

I can't stop those thoughts,
I've kept them at bay for long enough.
It's about time they eat me away like parasites.

An uncurable disease, makes the heart hurt.
I'm hurt, but I don't know why.
I want to cry but I'm not sure why.

I just want you, I need you.
But I can't always burden you with mine.
Can't I? No, that's wrong.

Overthinking has gotten the best of me,
I feel like silencing my mind, please just stop it.
I hate every thought uttered by them.

The demons, they wouldn't just stop.
I need him, my antidote.
My saviour, he'll save me from myself.

But will he ever get tired of saving me,
When he's done it one to many times?
Wouldn't he too, be tried of someone like me?

Overthinking has gotten the best of me,
What do I do to make it stop? Please the voices.
Just make it stop, stop overthinking.