BROKEN HEART

CHAPTER 27

BINTA'S POV

I love you Binta!
I know you asked for some space but I am sorry I don't think I can endure not hearing your voice for another day, allow me to atleast hear you breath in my ears even if you won't say anything I am okay with that.

I didn't know why,I just started crying
How can I explain this kind of feeling
How can I explain to him that I am also feeling the same way
I have been ignoring it for long but I don't think my heart is going to endure it with me anymore
I am really scared of this new feeling of love that I seem not to have control over
I couldn't help but continue crying

I could hear his voice talking with so much worry.
"I am sorry Binta
  I didn't know my call will hurt you this much,I just couldn't endure it any longer I am really sorry
Please stop crying nah or should I come over?
I quickly said no because I might break down if I see him and I don't think I am ready to say out my feelings to him.

Through out the day I kept on thinking of how to go about the whole situation
I later decided to do what I think is the best solution
I picked up my phone and dialed Mubarak's number asking him to come over to the house
I could hear the joy in his voice saying he will be with me soon
I felt I little guilty about what I am about to do,but I have no choice I can't deny my heart what it wants

I offered him some food and drinks I made specially for him
He made sure he ate to his satisfaction
We gist for long before I finally decided to say what I have in mind
Mubarak!
I called out his name wanting him to give me his full attention
He looked at me with a smile without answering waiting to hear what I have to say

Thank you for everything
I am really really grateful.
Thank you for the love you have always shown me , thank you for being patient with me all this while
I am really sorry but I can't marry you

I could see the tears rushing out of his eyes,I also couldn't stop mine because I really do pity Mubarak he has been through a lot for me,but I have no choice my heart wants someone else
He looked at me with his swollen eyes and said
You choose the other guy over me?
What can I do to make you choose me?
Tell me Binta,I am ready to do anything I promise you,but please don't leave me,I can't loose you for the second time
Or is it because of Aliyu?
I told you I have nothing to do with him anymore"

No Mubarak, it's never because of Aliyu

"Then what" he asked
It's what my heart wants,I said playing with my fingers because I can't bear to look at him in the eyes

"Can I ask you a question?he asked and I nodded
"Do you believe I love you "
I still nodded
"No I want you to open your mouth and answer me"

Yes I said trying so hard to control my tears but couldn't
"Then that's enough for me
  I will continue cherishing  your love in my heart
I will accept my faith
Maybe you are  never meant to be mine
Just promise me you will be happy this time and I will let you go forever"

I couldn't say anything but cry
I am sorry Mubarak is what I kept saying
Seeing I couldn't say anything he just looked at me wiping away his tears
"It's okay Binta ,I understand what you feel.
I will leave now
I wish you all the best life can offer
Please take care of yourself"
He said before standing up to leave

I went back to my room and continued crying till I couldn't cry anymore

I didn't call Bashir and I didn't pick his call either and he kept calling,I decided to switch off my phone because I was tired of hearing the phone ring

The next day I was lying on the couch with my head on my mom's laps ,I was trying to get some sleep because I couldn't sleep last night when I heard Bashir's voice coming into the house
I quickly stand up trying to run to my room when my mom hold me back saying "are you going to avoid him forever?
I have no choice but to go back and sit down when he entered
After greeting my mom,she left us in the sitting room and went to her room

Bashir walks to the chair I was sitting and knelt in front of me holding his ears,"punish me Binta , but I really can't endure not hearing your voice and seeing you at the same time "
I almost laugh at his expression

"Just tell me what to do"

Stop coming to my place I said
"I really can't do that
How will I see you if I don't come
I can't breathe when you are not close to me.
I feel  like suffocating This past few days so please it's okay like that"
Binta!
He called out my name ,I just looked at him because I couldn't bring myself to answer
Stop depriving your heart from what it desires

And what do you think my heart desires?I asked wanting to hear what he will say

"Your heart wants me"
He said with a wide smile

And why did you think my heart wants you?

"It's written all over your face
You can't hide it anymore so please stop suffering us anymore
Just give yourself another chance to love"

But I never said I love you,I said pushing out my mouth

He smiled trying to mimick the way I spoke
You don't need to say it
I am okay just from feeling it

Come on stand up go and dress I have something to show you

Where are you taking me to?

I am trying to steal you away
Come on go and change abeg stop asking too much questions
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