Entry 55 - 4/30
It's been over a month since I had to quit the weightlifting team.
At first it was just meant to be a hiatus, to get my health back on track, now it's gotten so much worse. At first I was doing much better, then I developed POTS, and now any sports really are out of the question.
I've been assuring Felix, Minho, and Chan that I'll be fine, I'm not that upset about it, but I am.
Truth is I'm fucking devastated, I can still workout and stuff but anything too draining makes me pass out. And sadly, with POTS, just standing up can make me pass out.
The team gave me a goodbye party, which was really sweet of them. All my teammates gave me gifts and their condolences, which I admit made me feel a bit better.
Being the captain, it was hard to leave, but I had no other choice.
I'm grateful for Felix sticking right by my side with everything that's going on, he's really so sweet and I feel bad for not telling him enough.
He does so much for me, he's so talented, and so pretty. I quite literally could never ask for a better boyfriend, it makes me so proud of myself for never giving up on him even when things were complicated.
It's just hard to tell him that to his face sometimes.
————— 10k Milestone Special Pt. 2 🫶🏻
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By Chance | Minsung ✔️
FanfictionReserved and outgoing, clashing personalities. It could never work out. But everything happens by chance. TW⚠️: Suicide attempt, no major character death, mature themes and language
