My life on crack at 2 am

Friday, December 29, 2023

I didnt have a dream

Last night I finished the book Something Close to Magic by Emma Mills (would recommend/

Today we are actually going to Seaworld which is like 2 hrs??

(Tomorrow it will rain and the day after, we're going home :((((

I am feeling ambivalent because i reaaslloy wanna get back to my drawing tablet (i have lots of idews, and since my dad let me get venmo, i can do commissions

But also, school. I fucking hate school

I have likeee 3? Art friends? (Im not really friends with Stars and Smile, and i dont know Strawberries that well) 

forgot to mention but i got Strawberries for our friend group's wecret santa and my dad finally ordered the my mepody bracelet fir her off amazaon

Ok back to the art froends

The thing is, i think Stars is the only digital artist out of the three of them (havent asked the other two) but she still does  traditional art more?? She knows what comms are fortunateoy yopppee

I offered to find a toyhouse code for her and like most people she said "whats toyhouse" 

Oh yeah i forgot abt Friend 1

He's really good at drawing weapons and structures and trees (remember him, he's our dnd dm)

Ok oops i forogt abt Frenemy 2 and Crush 2 (they nostly draw these little grmlins though)

Ok the thing is

I suck at making friends

I cant even remember how i became friends with midnight??? She says that i just randomly said that she was my friend one day

Now see, that approach will not work with most people

And there's my prblem

Also most people at my school are super annoying

Istg

At rhe age of 13, like 1/3 of the girls and 1/4 of the boys start dressing in alt clothing or yk crop tops and short shorts while most of themy stay immature as fuck

They're stupid and annoying

The rest of the people are either dumbasses or just stopped giving shits

There's practically a 0% chance of me making new art friends

Im not saying there's anything wrong with my current friends, we just dont have a lot of the same interests

Most of ny friends are kpop stans

Stars isnt but she liks danganronpa (she watched playthroughs) and the only other undertale fabs ik are fucking Enemy 1 and Frenemy 2 (and Crush 2, but we dont talk)

The only Gravity Falls ppl ik are this annoying kid that i only saw last year and Enemy 1, who literally just watched the first episode and the last 3 rpisodes

Rn Enemy 1 is interested in touhou lmao (except he's really weird and horny?????)

The only owl house person ik is Nintendo Fan and he's annoying and we dont even go to the same school

Pjo i just have Friend 1 (who i dont see often) and Midnight (who didnt even finish HoO

Harry potter i have quite a few (i dont talk abt it often) and also jk rowling is transphobic 

Ill watch just add magic again so i can talk abt it with Midngiht

Dnd ik Enemy 1, Frenemy 2, abd Friend 1