"I never want you to leave me." He whispers eerily close to my lips.
"Aww is my baby scared?" I played around with him, teasing him.
"I'm serious."
"Will you cry if I leave you forever ...will you be sad?"
"I won't feel sad, I won't cry. I'm incap...
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Another dayyy , another slayyy.. period.
Starting my morning with this mantra, I got up and washed my face and headed downstairs for breakfast.
My parents were already at the table. When I entered, dad looked at me and said "so... are you ready for your trip?? I have already booked your tickets for the next week".
"I'm not papa," I sighed as I sat next to him and served myself some hot Aloo parathas and mint chutney(dip).On the other side, the aroma of tea with a hint of cinnamon bought a warm relief to me. "I have a ton of stuff to buy and plan. I need to buy new clothes, and... and I'm stressed out *sigh*. With a laugh, my dad said, "Okay, slow down. You have the entire week to plan, so don't worry. Just remember to enjoy yourself while on vacation-you don't get to see your aunt very often."
I nodded at what my dad said acknowledging his point, then I turned to mum to inform her about my plan for today, " mummy I'm going out with Noor and then we will probably go out for shopping, so I'll be back by evening". Before my mum could say anything I added "..and yes I'll remember to ring you up in between."
4 hours later.....
Noor and I collapsed onto a vacant bench, worn out by the day's demands. ( we were not even half way through the day btw, but if felt like a whole day has passed).
"Dude I don't get why we are buying so much for a 1 month trip". She groaned from all the tiredness. "it's one n half month... which is 15 days more" I elaborated, giving her a side eye. "You do realize in 15 days I can do so much right?".
"Yah you can , like sit at home , move from kitchen to living room and then back to your room" she snickered. I playfully pushed her and said "stop teasing me. Seriously, I have made my mind that no matter what I won't sit at home, I'll explore as much as I can and enjoy this vacation. I even got a green flag from my dad that I can do whatever I want as long as I remain alive and do nothing sort of illegal."
She looked at me excitedly and said " so how about you find yourself a tall , handsome m-" "don't even think about-" I cut her before she could finish that thought and glared at her, knowing what she was about to say.
"but don't you think it's high time you get in a relationship, usually you complain about being single , now that you are getting an opportunity you don't even wanna contemplate about it??"
It's not like I never gave it a thought, I did.. I'm just scared of executing it in reality. My overthinking always stops me from going any step forward. I can't help but think every negative possibilities before positive. At this pace I don't think I can get in relation even in my 30's.
okay Aiyana , let's give it a thought, your 20s need at least an ounce of intimacy. If you don't like it you can always stop it. Let's start with baby steps.
"umm.. okay I'll maybe give it a try.. like not a relationship but try befriending a guy" That's the least I can do. I said with a small smile.
Her face lit up " that's my girl. I'm happy that you're at least giving it a try".
"okay enough about me, let's continue our shopping. There's still so much left".
After spending another hour or something we finally decided to head home.
She dropped me off in her car, just as I was about to leave , she pulled me in a hug and said " I'm glad you are moving on, don't let one bad experience ruin everything that is beautiful." Noor's face soften the tiniest ounce. I realized how worried she had been about me since that incident.
She always made sure that I'm comfortable and has taken care of me like a mother. I feel bad for worrying her so unnecessarily.
"Chill it's not that serious, I was single by my own choice not because of someone else ." Definitely not because of a monster. I gave a rusty but genuine laugh.
"whatever it was, I hope you enjoy your vacations , JUST don't get pregnant... I haven't earned enough to become a rich aunty yet". I smacked her.
We both laughed at it and then departed our way.
well today was a long day ... gotta get my beauty sleep. My sweet bed here I comeeee
Well the starting chapter seems to be a little short and simple, I'll try my best to make it interesting in future chapters.
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