i will always choose you

Jude

Amelia's pov:

after Pablo left, and everyone was basically leaving, Jude was the only person who was still sitting in his place looking tired and about to faint

i was so worried about him, and he looked so drunk

i hate when people are drunk

"Jude?"

he looked at me and didn't answer

"Jude?"

i said again, and he also didn't bother to answer me

so i approached him took the drink from his hand

"i'm talking to you"

"what Amelia"

"are you drunk"

"what can you see"

"now let's go jude, it's not the time for talking"

"wait wait"

his voice was so drunk and the smell of his breathe was only champagne i could smell from far away

"Jude let's go"

"where are you taking me"

"to my house you look so drunk you can't leave now"

"oh oh n-no i have to leave love"

omg no no this can't happen right now

"jude let's go, you can leave tomorrow"

i took him from his hand and obviously didn't want to leave with sira and Ferran with Jude so i just texted sira that i already took a cab and i'm on my way back home

i ordered us a cab and the whole car ride Jude kept mumbling some words i couldn't actually recognize what he is saying because he isn't speaking properly and his voice is only a fade whisper, but i heard my
name a lot that's what i recognized

i haven't talked to Jude for a while, since the break up we never really had a talk or anything so it feels weird being around him like this, like taking him back at my house

we finally arrived at my house, Xavi wasn't there luckily, so i was wrapping Jude's arm around my neck and he was basically resting on me, he wasn't even able to walk he was so drunk

we went inside my room, and i put Jude down on my bed, and tucked him in, and made him comfortable

i was leaving the room until he interrupted

"don't leave"

i turned around and saw him opening his eyes looking at me about to cry, i started to get flashbacks of our relationship that i actually miss a lot, i was in love with him that I actually can't help but remember everything that happened between us

i went beside him, and he looked so happy that i did, then i kept staring at him about to cry, every time i look at him all i get is flashbacks

Jude kept mumbling words that actually made sense now and i understood what he said

"Amelia, the girl who came into my life when i needed someone, i never thought i would find myself completely destroyed without her, and it's hard to hate the person who made you how you are right now, you just end up hating yourself, she came into my life when i needed someone and i fell for her immediately, i love her"

while hearing what Jude said my heart shattered from inside knowing that we will never be together again, because i already love Pablo and I see a future with him, loving someone other than Pablo would be weird and i know it will be a mistake, so hearing what Jude saying made me cry my soul out, that i couldn't actually handle it well that i actually cried loudly and i couldn't keep it inside