How can I lose control
if I never had it in the first place?
I listen to the rules,
Those living, breathing things,
Only to find that they pierce my heart
with a thousand tiny needles,
Sewing my wings to the ground
so I may never touch the sky.How can I lose control,
when the green light I'm given
Hides a hundred shades of red?
When the chains around me loosen,
and the choice becomes mine,
I hear the shackles groan and rattle
as if to remind me
that my choice was nothing more
than an illusion.How am I losing control
when the very air around me
is so heavy, and so dense,
that it pins me in place?
I long to scream, to shout,
to dance, to fly,
to circle high above the heavens
And chase impractical dreams.I long to let my mask fall,
To shatter the emotions
Bottled up inside of me.
I long to crumble the walls around my heart
And let the light back in.I long for control of something.
Of anything.
Even if that control
means my own self-destruction.
JE LEEST
From the Silent Girl
PoëzieThis is a collection of poems about relationships, observations, and emotions from the eyes of someone who ends up watching life rather than living it. #6 in poetrycollection 6/12/23 #7 in freeverse 6/12/23