You were there when I needed you.
You saw the crack in my mask
And widened it until I broke free.
You sparked something inside of me,
An excitement, a glee.
Soon the silent girl
could not stop running her mouth.
The chains around her heart fell away,
the iron lock rusted out.
Soon your hand inched its way around mine.
And our eyes met in whirlpools of blue
Our shoulders touched and I found my place
Sitting right next to you.
You were my master clockmaker;
I showed times of joy and sorrow.
I let you see my inner workings,
And I showed you my hopes for tomorrow.
I showed you where I was broken,
and where I thought I needed to be fixed,
but I never did show you
The things that made me tick.
And as time marched on,
You forced us to run.
You catapulted us into the future
Where you were so sure we would be
with our daughters and sons.
Uncertainties danced around my head.
Marriage? Kids?
We were only sixteen
But onward he floated on his delusional dreams
And who was I
to shoot him out of the sky?
So silent I stayed,
And afraid I became
of telling the truth,
of causing dismay.
He was just so attached,
And he'd been through heartbreak before
So who was I
To break him some more?
The chains on my heart
Began weighing me down
And all of the attraction
Soon flickered out.
Am I just immature?
Am I too new to this?
I feel so uncomfortable
When he tries to kiss
When our hands touch
No sparks are flying
I feel like a child,
caught in a web of false affection,
Slowly dying.
I needed to tell him,
needed to break free.
He may have been my only companion,
But I'm sick of codependency
I can't take it much longer
enduring his fantasy.
In the end, it was all my fault,
for not speaking up when I had the chance
And though I shed no tears, I'm sorry
That I killed our budding romance.
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From the Silent Girl
الشعرThis is a collection of poems about relationships, observations, and emotions from the eyes of someone who ends up watching life rather than living it. #6 in poetrycollection 6/12/23 #7 in freeverse 6/12/23
