Devil in Class 1-D

Chapter 07 - Just nighmare

My sleep never went the way I wanted

This dream my nightmare ,also my reality

I've seen pieces from the past

5 years ago

I saw how good I was for the first time

Even though I had a lot of education until I was 11, I was never compete to other kids.

First time my dad signed me up for a fighting tournament

All I wanted was to make him proud

During the tournament, I was finishing every opponent with 2 or 3 blows.

I fought cruelly without hesitation as my father taught

I don't know why... I fought as if I wanted to kill my opponent

While we were winning every battle, the referee was always separating me from my opponent at the end of the battle

I could really kill

All I wanted was praise from my father...

I'm so craved for compliment's or attention from him

I received training in many fields that I did not want

Martial arts, music, academic knowledge, general knowledge, acting

I didn't even have time for myself daily.

All I did was improve myself

So why?

I've never asked these questions

My overall goal was to satisfy my father.

I wanted him to be proud of me

But I had to make my own choices, right?

I was always physically superior

I was always superior mentally

I was always superior in appearance.

So what was my purpose?

...

...

I didn't know

My only goal had been to experience the satisfying feeling of victory.

That's how I've always fed my own ego

Finally, the distorted and unstable personality I have now was created.

The past is past, I can't escape or forget everything

I had a normal life until I was 7 years old

Those were the lives where I was a nice family having fun with my sister

But my father saw my sister as an obstacle to my development.

I was his puppet, I was going to do whatever he said and be what I wanted his to be

What is it to be superior?

Are humans born superior?

Yes I was born superior

But being superior didn't mean I was callous.

I don't know what my sister is doing right now

Was staying with my different relatives

I hope to see you one day

Then let's be a real family

Equal... Loving

I rub my eyes and yawn. I frown slightly because of dream. I lay on bed again... Today i am not in my mood,i decide to skip school for today...