✔︎|Blue Hour (Jaywon ff)

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After the funeral, I only got worse.

I had stopped eating completely, stopped talking to everyone, and kept myself locked in my room for weeks.

It still only felt like yesterday you left me.

I scrolled through my gallery for hours on end looking at pictures I took of you.

With every picture I saw, it made me miss you more.

Even though I still had my family and my friends, I still felt alone.

I felt alone without you. Empty. Incomplete.

It felt like everything was meaningless without you.

Our friends kept trying to reach out and talk to me, but I would either ignore them or tell them I didn't want to talk.

I knew they were mad at me for shutting them out, but I knew they were also worried, and scared for me.

They were scared of what I was doing to myself.

They were scared of what I would do.

I never meant to scare anyone,

I just wanted to see you again.

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double update cause this one is super short😰

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