✨MY BILLIONAIRE TWINS ✨|| JIKOOK

31.

GUK POV

It's barely dawn.

The room is still mostly dark
but I've been awake for
hours already.

Jimin is sleeping next to me,
his body curled up against mine as his breath tickles my chest.

I don't want to stay in bed
but I don't want to move and wake him, either.

I'm full of restless energy
even though a good fuck before bed usually knocks me out
for the night. Not this night.

And of course, I know why.

It seems like the more I try
to put Tae and all of those
bad memories out of my head, the more I end up thinking
about them.

The details of that horrible
day have been playing on a
loop in my mind since I told Jimin about it earlier—no,
that's not right.

That day has been playing
out over and over again in my head ever since it happened.

It has nothing to do with
Jimin, he was just the trigger that brought it up this time.

It would've happened again eventually, with or without him.

I turn my head to look at the Omega, He's always stunning
but he's especially angelic
while he sleeps.

Just another reason for me to keep lying here in bed when I'd rather be doing anything else
to burn off these bad memories.

After he wakes up, the first thing I'm going to do is go for a run.

I'm going to run until I
collapse, until I'm too numb
to feel anything anymore.

Then maybe I can get some rest.

He stirs against me and I hold my breath, determined not to wake him until he's ready.

"Guk?" His voice is thick with sleep.

"Are you awake?"

I nod but stay silent in case
he wants to fall asleep again.

"How long have you been awake?" he asks, raising his
head up to rest his chin on my chest as he looks into my eyes.

"I hope it's not because of me."

"I tend to move around a lot
in my sleep sometimes."

"No, it's not you." I try to
smile, but it feels too forced
and I'm too tired to fake it.

"It's me. It's... everything."

I'm not sure if I feel better or worse after telling Jimin my
story but there's no taking it back now.

He's the first person I've
spoken to about it aside from Jungkook or a paid specialist since that day.

And I don't know how I feel about that, either.

This Omega is definitely
getting to me.

He's in my head and worse
in my heart.

If I'm not careful, this fun
little fling is going to seriously fuck with my emotions and
that's not something I'm comfortable with.

"Anything you want to talk about?" he asks.

I immediately shake my head.

"No. I think I've said enough already. Probably too much."

He moves away from me and
I instantly feel like an ass for saying it, but it's the truth.

Talking is the last thing I want
to do today, Talking just leads
to something more serious
than I can handle right now.

"Do you have anything
planned for today?" Jimin asks
as he rolls out of bed.

He's putting on a sweet smile and trying to make small talk, but I can see the confusion in
his eyes.

I don't want to lead him on
and I don't want to say some
thing I'll regret though that ship has probably already sailed.

"No, not really." I turn away
from him and pull the sheets
up tight around my body.

"You should probably get
back to your room soon."

"I don't want Jungkook to
wake up and find out you spent
the night in here with me."

He doesn't answer but I can
hear him moving around the room, probably picking up his discarded clothes from the
night before.

I close my eyes and keep my breathing steady until I hear
the door open and close.

When I open my eyes
again, I'm alone.

Which is probably for the best.

It's probably what I need.

Probably what I deserve.