Mafia is Love

6. The ex

TW: Mentioning of ED
                                       •Maria•
I woke on my bed, wait how did I get here? The last thing I remember was falling asleep on Issac

WAIT I FELL ASLEEP ON ISSAC THE FUCKING RUSSO?!?!

When I panicked, I pull my head up as fast as I could

I groan, shit I haven't ate in 3 days and my head hurts like a bitch

Fuck I feel like I'm going to faint, I try to get up but I just can't move and disgust runs through my body

I only get like this one week out of the whole year

I look at the date on my phone, yep todays the day

I hate this week with my whole fucking heart

The week when I first met him.

Also the week when I first got SA'd

God, I can't do this right now. Just thinking about him makes my throat dry up

I don't know what came over me but I just start bawling my eyes out

These thoughts still come to my mind after 3 years

Why did he do this to me? Was it ok for him to do this? I mean we were together, What did I do to deserve this?

Everyday I still think it's my fault because I let him do it but I just couldn't move when he was on me

With his fat ass body, fugly hoe

I'm still crying in my bed early at 8:15 am

After I cry for a few minutes, I heard my door bust open

It's lily

Thank God, Because if it was Issac or Matthew I would've been done for

"Aw Maria what's wrong" Lily says sympathetically

She quickly realizes when she looks at the date

"Omg baby come here, it gonna be okay" She says while pulling me into a hug

Lily is the only person that knows because she's the one that walked in the room with a knife to stop him

And if I told my mom she would've just stayed "you should've stopped him" and my father I don't even want to know what my father will think of me

I cry into lily's chest for 15 minutes, Until my door busts open again

Shit it's Issac, I'm literally gonna kms

"cazzo piccola cosa è successo?" He comes up to me wiping a tear off my cheek
[fuck baby, what happened?]

I don't want to tell him what happened at all. He's just going to look at me differently and avoid me

When he says that I get up and ran to the bathroom

I quickly lock the door and lay my back against it

"Princess please tell me what's wrong" He says while trying to open the door

"Just leave her, she needs some time" I hear lily say through the door

"No I need to know why she's crying" He says while trying to busting the door

"I can't tell you even if I could I wouldn't tell you, it's not my place" Lily says calmly

"Fine!" He yells

When I hear him leave the room, I just stay in my bathroom sobbing quietly

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After all my crying I look in the mirror

Eww I look like a bozo, But I have no motivation to do anything

I brush my teeth and brush my hair

Then I leave to go downstairs

When I get to the top of the stairs I start to listen to a conversation going down

"She does this every year, I don't know why but we just leave her alone" Mason says to I'm guessing Issac and Matthew

I walk down the stairs and all eyes go on me

Probably cus I look like shit but oh well

"Ah the witch finally came from her room" Blake blurts out

I flip him off and went to the fridge

I grab a water and started to drink while everyone was still looking at me weird

Fuck now I'm gonna throw up

The food on the table is making me nauseated

I need ice.

I try to grab a glass from the counter but it's to high

I grab a chair and pull it up to the counter

I step carefully on it and I grab the glass

But I suddenly make the worse mistake ever, I look down.

After not eating for 3 days I feel like im going to pass out

Black dots start to form in my eyes while im still on the chair

"Shit" Issac says running to grab me

All the black dots go away and I feel perfectly fine

But then I feel a pair of hands grab me in bridal style upstairs

I fall onto the bed and start to snuggle into my blankets

"Amore, what's happening?" Issac says softly

I don't respond

"Please baby, im getting worried" He says while his voice cracks

I still don't respond, I just can't let him think of me differently

"This is probably my fault, im sorry I'll leave" He says while getting up

He walks out the door and closes it

"Fuck this im going on a killing spree" I hear him through the door

Damn now im gonna be the reason why innocent people die

I start sobbing quietly

I hate life.
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AHHH HEY LOVES!!!!
I honestly don't like this chapter idk why
It feels rushed to me so I might change it

Word Count: 914

Anyways have you ate today? If not pls do!!
BYEEEEE 🫶🏽🫶🏽