our love..

No jeju

Y/N pov.

I was in the church, I don't know, actually, were, I was.
I start getting, formally know the place, where, I was.
There was many, sitting chairs or benches.
The wall are firmly look like church, white. And the huge glass and wooden doors, through which light is coming.
There is silence.
I felt like, I'm grip on something, I look at my hand, I was holding, someone's hand, I follow, the other's hand, which was I holding. It was namjoon's, I felt happy , to holding his hand, I feel secure.
But, then, someone's, figure appear, on the bench of the church.
He was sitting on the bench, by facing us back.
I know him.
It's him.
I slowly start, loose my grip from namjoon's hand, I felt, missing of that, soft yet warm, hold of him on my hands.
And I start moving towards the sitting figure.
I last time, turn around.
And saw namjoon, and I said, " maybe some else day " .
I can felt that bang, in my chest.
But, I don't know, why.
Why I'm walking towards, that sitting figure, I know that, he don't love me, namjoon did.
But, why I ran away from, namjoon.
And I was thinking that, and don't know, when I sit next to that sitting figure.
I don't want him.
I want namjoon.

I wake up, and still digest, that dream, I just had.
I can, still feel the same bang in my chest, when I left namjoon's hand, in dream.
I felt that, so real.
The warm feeling in my hand.
His touch on my hand.
I again, close my eyes.
And replay that, all moments.
I just watch in the dream.
I wanted to change that scene.
But, I can't.

I sighed and frustratedly turn my left side.
And I open my eyes.

A unknowingly, smile appear on my face. The cutest, person, of my life.
Is sleeping peacefully.
His hairs. His nose bridge. His closed deep eyes. His small pout, while sleeping.
His little beard on the chin.
He is eternity.
I can't leave him.
The most beautiful thought, came in my mind.
I felt peace, that, he is still next to me.
Assurance of his, presence.

My thought, got, distribute, by the knock on the door.

Namjoon, just move, by the knock.
And roll over the pillow, over his head.

I chuckled and made a run up to the door.

I open, the door.

" hey, morning " it's kiya.

" yeah, morning " I said while, glance on the namjoon and close the door behind, me.

And walk out from the room.

" I made, a tea, you wanna join " kiya asked.
" yeah, sure, but I just woke up, so after bathe." I said.

" come, atleast, have a sit, with me " kiya said, while extending the dinning chair towards me.

I sat on that.

There was silence.
Maybe, we have lots, things to share with eachother, that, we couldn't know, where to start.

" so, namjoon, ha " she start the talk.
"Hmm" I hummed. Cause, I couldn't understand that.
" I said, namjoon, is that one " she asked.
' The one ' I always know, that there is someone, for only me. But it's was namjoon.
Doesn't, we're just get, into this contract thing, I don't know, the one is namjoon or not.

But I lied, " yeah, probably "

" I'm happy, that you got your
dream man " kiya pleased.

" yeah " weird feeling.

" so, do you heard, about Christine, she had a baby, now " I said, while change the topic.

" what's, new, everyone, gets married and having babies, Bae' , I think, from our batch, just us and two or three people, left, who don't get neither married, nor having children." Kiya said, in the practical way.