you touched my body
like every inch belonged to you
you broke my walls down
pinned my soul to the ground
as if you had forgotten
that i was like you
human, breathing
you pushed your way in
into my broken bones
the way you looked at me
reminded me of my shattered home
the way my grandfather
raised his hands on my grandmother
as if he forgot
she was human, breathing
your touch seemed so familiar
like a song i used to sing long ago
and with every breath i took
the faster you invaded
the more painful it became
and i started to scream
started to scream in pain
you heard my pleas
but you did not stop
it started to feel
like my body was not my own
like a garden for you to explore
a sea for you to drown in
my words became a chant
i started to wonder
when it would be over
staring into the ceiling
tried to disassociate from what was happening
for i could not believe
the man i love
was the one raping me
and when you eventually stopped
and pulled away from my body
laid right beside me
heavy breathing
you said it was embarrassing
and you could not believe you did that
i asked if you heard me at all
and you said you did
but when i asked why you kept thrusting into me
you started to cry
"i don't know
it felt so good
that i could not stop"
