i held you in my arms
even after what you had done
i felt bad for the pain i had caused you
when i had packed my bags
and was ready to leave
the pain i caused you?
the pain?
i wanted to leave
because you raped me !
why did i stay?
why did i love you so much
that seeing you cry
made me throw my feelings to the side
and hold you instead?
i felt bad that you
felt bad for raping me
i hated seeing you cry
i forced myself to accept your apology
and forget what had happened
just so you and i
could stay together
to make you feel better
and i laid next to you
for the rest of the night
telling you i loved you
and that it was okay
i was okay
and when you asked
why i was comforting you
when i'm the one who should be comforted
i did not know what to say
