Rose garden that grew within me✔

therapy

I waited to welcome new friends in front of the main gates,
my childishness,mental states,everyone hates.
I went to see a doctor,
he gave anti stress pills,thats a factor.
Some days seems so scary,
everything seems so blurry.
I can't bear this mental assault.
I felt like I'm the one at fault.
In a trauma is where they threw me,
I guess I'm who should be guilty?
Ours is a country where the victim is to blame,
its ruled by power,fame and name.
Everything is run by social media,
I get delusions sometimes,mostly phobia.
No one is going to remember me when I die,
because ambivert me is very shy.
Is there any specific reason why they think I'm weird?
If I tried to stab my belly with a knife,no one would have cared.
I only invest my time over the kind of person who are favourite to me,
others I force myself to talk to out of bare minimum courtesy,
because they came to talk to me first.
I sealed my mouth to people I only care about and trust,
or I need around me to make myself look cool,
well thats the ambiverts rule.

12.04.22