why chase over someone I knew;with me he was in doubt,
when all I had was better option that would clearly work out?
even though I erased it from my phone for exact.
its still memorised on my fingertips-as a matter of fact.
I lost track of how many times I attempt to dial that blocked contact.
I could hop off the plane for Californian holidays with fame excess,
then why waste my stress over a mess and settle for something much less?
where are the times gone when I was fresh and fun and good with grades?
Instead of sitting in-front of laptop screen,watching Netflix,all day eating junkies/forceful nudes that we trade?
with him I never tried to talk dirty,
and for the first time I felt like I was in love and he is a priority.
But he took advantages in every way he can; that he try.
Never cried for anyone or anything as much as he made me cry.
I miss the actual physical pain of small skipping heartbeats and numb legs that I got when every time he blocked me.
Guess now from all that I'm totally free.
Maybe he could come over and see.
All those angers and sadness,
turned me into a poetess.
It could've been us-in Europe over every summers.
Won't he have any slightest regret on loosing me like that as scars?
14.01.23
Saturday
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Rose garden that grew within me✔
PoetryI literally remember those days when I had this sort of conversation with my sister over the phone: "guess what?" "lemme guess another new poem!".🥀 and then we scream 'Yay' in our own world of happiness. I re-read some of my favourites among these...
