I Can't Stop Even If It's Wrong!!

Chapter 20

Harry's POV:

At around 4am in the dead of the night:

"I am sorry to bother you like this Ni" I say politely and as normally as my trembling voice would let me.

"Hey, chill, you are not bothering me at all. This is your house too" Niall said in his soft jeery voice. I feel so relieved meeting him, i have no idea why.

He got me a glass of water to drink and then sat opposite to me on the couch. There's a moment of silence between us and the night can be heard. After giving up to his concerned gaze, i finally take a deep breath and tell him everything. And yes, i told him about the part where me and Louis kissed. To my surprise he didn't really seemed disgusted or shocked. And to think, having a doppleganger is the most terrifying thought to exist, had never been so wrong. The most terrifying thought right now was definitely the way Niall reacted. I could have let it slide but i had to ask him, for my own sanity...

"Aren't you like- Disgusted or something? Like i kissed my potential step brother? More than one time.... isn't that something that should be reacted too?" I asked him concernedly.

"To be honest, you guys are technically living as tenant and landlord so far. Your parents haven't got married just yet, so technically what has happened between u and Lewis is, in my opinion, not that disgusting!?" He tried to sound as convincing as he best could.

Now that I think about it, his point had ground to stand on. I mean it is still conflicting what we were doing but i guess it hadn't crossed any lines yet, so it was far from being disgusting.

"And what Lewis did was definitely wrong. No one has the right to do what he did. I am so sorry Harry" he sat next to me and rubbed my back trying to comfort me.

After talking about it some more and letting out all my frustration, i was finally relieved. We kept getting interrupted because Louis kept calling and mssging me but I switched off my phone afterwards. I didn't want to talk to him at all. I was obviously going to take the couch and he was going to sleep in his room downstairs.

No matter how much u scream, that hurt stays with you and i felt it when i suddenly broke down. Niall came to my rescue and hugged me as tightly as he could and I am not sure I have hugged someone that tightly before. We were seated so it was pretty easy to hug each other but something about it seemed electrifying. And it wasn't the anger i was feeling, but something else. We hugged for atleast 10 minutes and then we slowly broke apart. He wiped off the tears from my face with his thumbs and we stared into each other's eyes.

I knew where it could lead and i think Niall knew too, but neither of us was breaking the eye contact. It wasn't a competition but it was like our bodies were stuck and no coherent thought was present in our minds. Before I can say something, Niall pecked my lips and then went ahead to kiss me.

WHAT IS HAPPENING??????

Thankfully it was just a simple smooch kinda kiss, nothing too deep. I was thoroughly shocked and so was he. I sure as hell didn't want that and judging by his face, neither did he.

"Shit! Harry I swear...i didn't mean to! I was sexting when u interrupted me and i guess it was all the pent up emotions that made me do that! I swear I didn't mean to kiss u! I don't know why I did that! I am so sorry! Please...I am sorr-" He was going at the speed of light and i was scared he will melt if he kept that up.

"It's okay Ni! Really...u don't have to worry. Besides, it was a mistake...let's leave it at that and move on...okay?" I ask him calmly. I wasn't really calm on the inside but for his sake i pretended i am.

"Yeah... Thank you for understanding" He smiled at me.

After saying final good nights we went to our respective places of sleeping. I thought about our kiss briefly, before drifting away to a sleep of tiredness and exhaustion.