Chapter 46: Lamentation
LARA's POV
Three days after, hindi ko alam kung paano pinakiusapan ni Dana ang mga Anti-Playgirl people. Ang alam ko lang, welcome na ako sa hospital.
I parked sweetpea and I'm expecting a bunch of ladies na magrally sa harap ko pero I'm glad na wala.
I entered the lobby at tinanggal ang shades ko thinking na magkandarapa ang mga antagonist para bugbugin ako when they'll recognize me pero wala.
"Hi Miss Playgirl." Masayang bati ng isang babae sa akin. Ows? Ngayon pa ako nakakita ng taong positive ang point of view sa pagiging playgirl ko ah. Amazing!
As soon as wala nang taong nakatingin, dali dali akong umakyat hanggang sa makaabot sa 3rd floor. I'm catching my breath pero okay lang. I only look forward to the time that I can see Tristan and talk with him. Kuya Cedric told me na critical ang condition niya. He even told me second hand details kung paano hinila si Tristan palabas ng kotse. He was unconscious at duguan.
When I realized na palapit na palapit na ako sa room ni Tristan, my heart started to pound.
I opened the door na kabadong kabado and I saw him lying with oxygen and everything. Feeling ko, fresh na fresh pa ang mga sugat niya. He looks worst than Pebrero. I can smell the familiar scent of hospitals. Ewan ko kung anong scent yun. I also smelled Betadine and Lysol.
Pero hindi na importante yun. I smelled the real trouble dahil nakita ko ang isang babaeng nakaupo sa tabi ni Tristan. She's holding his hand. Si Dana naman, inaalalayan si Trisha mula sa banyo.
"Twin?" mahinang bati ni Trisha.
Halos iiyak na ako nang makita ko ang kalagayan ni Tristan. Parang oxygen nalang ang bumubuhay sa kanya. I really wanted to hug him right now but I restrain that urge.
"Jade, pasyal daw muna kayo ni Trisha." Dana said.
Dahan-dahang pinaupo ni Dana si Trisha sa wheel chair nito.
When they left, Dana winked at me. Salamat at I can have these private moments with Tristan.
I sat beside his bed and held his hand. Hindi ko inakalang tutulo agad ang mga luha ko.
"I'm sorry Babe..." I whispered with a shaky voice.
"Babe, wag mo naman akong iwan oh..."
I held his hand and feel it with my cheeks. I've waited for like a decade to hold this hand. I felt like it has been a long time.
"I know you wanted your girlfriend to be here pero sana pagbigyan mo naman ako kahit ngayon lang... I just hope you're not mad because of this..."
"I really really wanted you back so bad...."
I said all those words in between my sobs. Kahit waterproof man ang mascara ko ngayon o hindi, I still wanted to get this off my chest. I still wanted to talk to him kahit alam kong natutulog siya at wala akong response na makukuha.
"Babe, the mess is fixed. Pwede na sana maging tayo ulit eh... But I guess I'm too late."
"I love you and every day I wanted to prove that it's true... If you only knew how much it hurts when I started ignoring you. If you only knew how painful the misery is during those nights when I'm not with you. If you only knew how much I wanted to tell you everything just to keep our relationship."
Sa mga panahong yun, I told myself to be strong. Sa mga panahung yun, iniisip ko na okay lang kung hindi na magiging kami as long as safe lang siya. Hindi pala okay eh. Ang sakit sakit pala.
