Reincarnated As The Villainess: The Past And The Last

Chapter 6: Lilithea's Past(last part)

Lilithea POV

after that encounter i have never seen the prince for months!! As in months!! I dont know what happend to him after attacked him but fucking deserve it!

Its surprising though. Because after i start to slowly forgive him for what he said. He started to act all mean and stupid. This mostly happened for 6 years!! Provoking me, humiliating me, and spreading rumors about me like a wild fire as much as he can. But i as a bad bitch that never accepts cruelty from others fight him all the time. until, i turned 12 he suddenly stops. He ignores me, looks at me coldly, treat me like an object, treat me like I don't exist at all.

Maybe that's when it hits me. My feelings wasn't hatred towards him. It was gaining for his attention, His love. It wasn't because i want him to take back the bad things that he did and said about me. Its the fact that i want him to see me differently than what the rumor's says about me. I want him to loved me for what i really am.

So, for the past four years. I have been trying get him to loved me, i want him to know that im not just does rumors that he personally heard and remade. How did i know? Because im the one who tells him those. Isn't stupid? I tried my best para mabago ang pananaw niya sakin. Pero ako din naman nag sasabi sakanya nang masasamang rumors na yun.

Now i know, na his love isn't worth gaining. How stupid for past me, past lilithea's stupid when it comes to love.

Love makes us weak, a retard, crazy. It makes us the most jokingly person. And i hate it.

Me as vivian never experienced love. Because i hate the thought and mostly the feel of it. I never want too. It hurt so much, gaining other peoples love while ruining your self love is selfish and selfless. Its much better to love yourself than to love others. It's the safest option after all.

But, I can't do that. Because, i have a family here. One thing i never experienced as vivian. Well, i did had one. They were not worth it of my love. No one does. Pero kahit anong isipin ko na ganun. Di ko parin kayang hindi mahalin ang natirirang pamilya ko dito sa bago kong mundo. I think they are worth it this time.

I really dont actually know why would my past self as lilithea choose someone like simon rather than choosing to love her family and friend. If i were her. Which i am now. I would cherish every moment i had with my given family. But i cant blame her. Because past lilithea never remember her life as vivian. The Cold Blooded Killer of the North Dame Valey.

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Authors Note: Very Short Update, pero sana satisfied kayo sa update today hihihi.

note// you will encounter some grammatical errors(this will be fix shortly )

(This is an edited version. The old version of this chapter has been exterminated or deleted in my works.thank you for reading/re-reading this chapter, stay safe everyone!!!)

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