Dear Diary

TWENTIETH

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Rose Ferrari

I didn't need more here either. I rushed to the hospital as fast as I could. After all, this is my last chance before I lose my mother forever. I ran frantically...

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10 hours earlier

It's been a week since the last competition and Christmas is the next big occasion for which I have to prepare. It took some time before my father and I agreed that I would leave our family home and move to Monaco with Charles. The only scandal was that I still had to stay in Maranello because of mother. I wanted to be here for him as long as possible. For a girl, losing her mother is one of the worst things in the world. I can't imagine what my life would be like without my parents, but the truth is that I've never thought about it because I didn't have to until now. Now, however, I am a personal "guest" of the hospital every day due to the fact that my mother will not live to see the new year. I was also a bit late with buying the gifts, I didn't have time for anything. Every day I started my day at the hospital where my father and mother visited. I told mom about Charles every day.

-How has Charles been since the victory? --Mom asked. I took her hand and smiled

-Charles is like a little boy. It's like someone whose soul has calmed down because he got the ice cream he wanted so much. He deserved the WC title and now his father and Jules are proud of him. He accomplished what was expected of him and now he can finally rest a little. We want to go on vacation in January after Christmas lunch. It would be nice to go far away from here so that we can see something else together. Mom, you know, I feel like he's my other half. When he is next to me, my heart beats differently. Better and always happy. Maybe this is love, --I said and looked into my mother's eyes. I knew that he wouldn't be able to live my wedding and this knowledge made me completely sad, but I just smiled in the hospital chair

-Bring him tomorrow too, --said mother.-- I want to finally see you together. I want to see my little girl in love and happy again. So Charles should come tomorrow.

-I'll bring him, I promise

-Sure?

-Yes mom,-- I said and hugged her. Her hand was shaking and the infusion was working. Mom took a deep breath and smiled.

-All right, now it's time to go Ms. Ferrari--, said the head doctor

-But I just came,-- I looked towards the door

-Go Rose. See you tomorrow, --said mother

Tomorrow, yes, --at that time I had no idea what would happen to me in the early hours of the morning. I just went home to my new little apartment in Maranello where Charles was already waiting.

-How was the hospital?,-- asked the boy who was trying to do things in the kitchen

-Horrible and frustrating at the same time, --I said and put my bag down on the kitchen island. --What are you doing anyway?,-- I asked and stepped behind the boy. I put my arms around him from behind and put my head on his border

-Pasta with Carbonara. I know how much you love it.

-I know you love me too, --I said and he turned to me

-You know, now we're like married,-- he said and kissed me

-Charles...the flesh is burning

-Shit,-- he said and laughing

Fortunately, the meat was salvageable and as worrisome as it looked, Charles did a really good job. By the way, he warmed my heart when he said that everything is like we are married. However, the cold December wind brought with it in the evening the depressive mood that I felt during the mourning during the cold lonely days. I sat on the sofa and stared out the window waiting for everything to start getting better. My mind was on my mother, who can spend the night in the hospital on December 12. It's been there for 2 weeks. And his condition is getting worse. When will the day of redemption be? When will everything be perfect again?

-Rose, you should sleep. We still have to buy a present tomorrow, --Charles said in his sleepy voice in his gray pajamas

-I'll be right back, --I said and looked back at the window.

-Rose. What's wrong?

-Mom....I have such a bad feeling about her.

-Believe me, my dear, everything will be fine. Your mother is in the best hands and if that counts for anything, the doctors are there with her

Charles' comforting hug really felt like a nice warm foamy bean cloud. I managed to get to the bed where I fell. I haven't been able to sleep for days and the exhaustion that dominated me started to affect my mental health.

-You know, Charles, today mother wanted you to come to the hospital tomorrow,-- I turned to the boy who was almost asleep.

-I'm happy to go, --he said and planted a kiss on my cheek. My phone rang at 3 am. It was my father.

-Your mother is dying, --father said quietly. I didn't even answer him, but immediately put on a pair of athletic pants and my boots. I also woke up Charles, who also quickly put on the first dress he saw in front of his eyes.

I didn't need more here either. I rushed to the hospital as fast as I could. After all, this is my last chance before I lose my mother forever.

Charles came up behind me as fast as he could. Looking at the ward, I thought I discovered one last hope in myself. My pajama top was showing under my coat, but I just ran to the end of the corridor. Father stood at the door and motioned for us to hurry. Mom was still awake. I squeezed her hand and looked at her

-I brought you Charles. He's here too. , --I said

-I see. Please Charles take care of Rose. And if I have grandchildren, take care of them too. Promise me, --said mother

-I promise . , --said Charles and he also shook mom's hand

-Mommy, please don't leave me here, you have to see my children, you will have to see them in the future..., --but mom didn't answer that. Her eyes closed and she said goodbye to us forever.

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Hey guys

First of all, I can honestly tell you that I cried when I wrote this part. You won't believe it, and this is the truth. By the way, I have to break Rose's little soul into even bigger pieces. I don't know who is reading this thread from me, but I need your help. I thought that I was writing a 25-part book, which is it, and then I would make a 2nd part for it. Or rather not. Maybe I'll continue in mid-August and take a little break until then.

So that's what I decided then. So there will be 25 parts or 27 and the end will be a bit unfinished. I'm going on vacation now, so I won't have much time. I hope all is well with you.

Love yaaa

Adel