Why Me?

13: It's Been So Long

Art by Nixakimbo:

Julia's Pov:

The bright blinding light of something went cross my face as I took a deep breath. There was a high pitch buzz in both of my ears, blocking out the rest of the sound in the room I was in." Is she alive?" I heard someone ask as my hearing started to clear." She has a heartbeat." Another person answered. My vision slowly went from blinding white light to seeing some colors and shapes, mainly abstract shapes that were moving around me." Get her into the jet and take her back to my lab, she needs all the help I can get her." I felt myself start to rise from the floor I was laying on and I was carried out of the room. My eyes closed and I must have passed out because just as soon as it went dark, I was being awakened by a young dark-skinned woman, she had a thick accent, one I had never heard before.

"Welcome to Wakanda. I'm Shuri and I'll be taking care of you here."

James Pov:

I walked back into the Air BnB Sam, and I were staying in after my little nature walk." How was the fresh air?" Sam asked as he was tinkering with redwing." Cold." I answered." So nice?" I nodded and chuckled." Sure man." I sat down across from him and sighed. Sam looked up at me and raised an eye brow." What?" I asked." You alright?" His question surprised me, to be completely honest no I wasn't." Yeah, why?" He shrugged and set down the tools he was using to work on redwing." You look lost, where's your mind at?" I sat back in my chair and crossed my arms." Here." He leaned his elbow on the table as he looked at me." No you're not. Where are you?" I looked around the room in hopes to keep myself from braking down in front of him. I couldn't let him see me like this." I'm here." I answered, sniffling back tears.

Sam nodded and didn't press me on it again. I got up and walked towards the bedroom I was staying in and shut the door behind me before falling to my knees sobbing. After I had gotten soft and told Sam all those suppressed memories of Julia and I the fact that I might never see her again was eating me alive. I had just gotten these memories back and now I was losing myself over them. She was my life line, my safe place. Now the thought of her being stuck in a Russian bunker, frozen for the rest of her life was starting to slowly kill me inside.

Even if Shuri did find her it was a slim to zero chance she would still be alive. I wouldn't be able to see her like that, I would rather her be dead in some cell then see her body preserved like that but there be no life in her.

I pulled myself together enough to walk to the shower and turn it on, I striped down and stood under the hot water, it stung my cold skin as I looked down at my feet. A few soft sobs left my lips as I held my face in my hands, I was sitting in the walk in shower, the water running over my back as I cried out my emotions.

I hadn't felt this way in, let's just say a long time. I was really good at hiding my emotions, even from my therapist. Besides Steve, Sam was the first person to know about Julia, and that made me feel scared. I was starting to get used to opening up, it was a good thing really. But sometimes I feel like I would over share some things, I would be telling a story and get new memories from that moment and just say them. Sometimes it wasn't always the best thing.

I got out of the shower after who knows how long, from the looks of it I had been in there for a while. It was dark out when I walked into my room. I was too tired to really do anything with myself so I just slid on some boxers and crawled into bed. I groaned when I heard someone knock on my bedroom door." What?!" I yelled." You okay man?" I sighed before trying to come up with an answer." Yeah, I'm fine, just trying to sleep." Sam sighed from the other side before saying good night. I laid back down once I heard the sound of Sam walking away from the door.

Normal Pov:

The cell door opened and I heard shuffling of feet then her voice. She sounded like she was crying." Stop, please." I heard her beg. I tried to get up off the floor but was pushed back down. I didn't hear what else was said before I was pulled up to my knees as a hand gripped my hair and pulled my head up to look at Julia who had blood smeared across her nose and lips." Tell us, how long?" The doctor known to me as Peterson asked." I- I don't know." Julia said and right after I was kneed in the gut by the man holding my head back." Stop, I answered your question just stop." Julia sobbed as I looked at her." Answered the question correctly." Peterson specified." What if I am?" Julia asked as she tried to pull her hands free from the man holding her." We'll know when you are." I looked to her as she fought, trying to get free." How long have you been sneaking around with him?" Peterson asked Julia. I looked to her, begging her to tell the truth." I can't remember." I got another knee to the gut and this time a punch across the face. I coughed and gasped after getting the wind knocked out of me." Just tell them, please." I begged after looking up at Julia." No, I can't." She told me." Just do it!" I yelled." I don't want you to die." I let out a sob as those last words left my mouth." Please Julia." She looked away from me as more tears feel down her face.