Isla Jesus [peaky blinders]

Deep breathes

The door slams open I jump up from my bed reaching for my gun "it's me" I hear Tom I let out a breathe I didn't even know I was holding " your a fucking idiot I swear your gonna give me a fucking heart attack one of these days"

I put my hun down and lay back in bed ready to fall asleep I feel the bed dip and he gets in next to me and I look at him " what's wrong now" I see him eyeing my boobs up I cover them with the blanket

" horny bastard" I mutter and he laughs I smirk " last time we had sex you fucked may I'm not fully convinced you don't have the plague" he rolls his eyes at me then laughs and puts his head in my kneck

The door swings open I see dad and I smile at him " mr Shelby" he notices Tom and I laugh " dad call him Tom I'll kill him if he's mean to you" he nods " Isiah said family meeting your mums back in town" I glare at dad and he gives me a sad smile leaving

I get up out of the bed and walk over to the wardrobe pulling out a suit and I turn to see Tommy

Still sat in the fucking bed " get up now I am not being here when she gets here so love your little ass" I say and he just looks before getting up and I pull my top on buttoning it top to bottom but top comes over pulling it apart

" Thomas" I say with a glare he looks at my stomach " isla you need a doctor" I slap his hands away and finish getting dressed putting boots on wincing " hurry" I say pulling on my jacket as I hear a car pull up I look outside and it's mum and you guessed it " right hurry up"

I rush him as I run downstairs pulling him with me and as we get halfway downstairs I stop as the door opens and in walks mum and Liam I freeze " still sleeping with the shelbys I see isla" my mother says I scoff as me and Tommy walk out the door well Tommy does

Liam grabs my arm " see you soon isla" I snatch my arm away from him and walk to Tom I take the cigarette off him and I smile at him " can we go on the horses" he nods as we start walking to Charlie's yard I see Isiah and fin there aswell

" well wel well" I laugh as Isiah hugs me " mums home" I nod as he sulks at me I kiss his head " youse using the horses" he shakes his head " no we are helping uncle Charlie" I nod smiling as curly hands me dangerous I get on him and see Tommy waiting

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Me and Tommy walk down watery lane my laughs filling the air as he grins " you fell over and said you'd bleed to death" he laughs and I pout " I was 7 Thomas" he cups my face pulling us to a stop and kisses me " and I love you isla Shelby" I laugh " he finally says it after nearly 19 years I said it to you when I was 7" he laughs as we carry on walking

" I want a dog" he shakes his head on I'm not a dog person la" I laugh as he opens the door letting me walk into pols " fine a cat like a kitten it would be our

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It's voice cuts me off "she's a slag" my mouthed shouts I turn around and see nearly everyone in the kitchen my dad Isiah fin polly John Arthur esme " what the fuck" I say I feel toms presence behind me " it's right she's been handing herself to me for the past year and a half" my head snaps to Liam didn't even realise he's here

" and who are you" Tommy asks and mother answers "the father of her baby" I hear gasp and some 'what's'

" how the fuck are you here" I shout at mother and she laughs at me I see Isiah look confused

Please don't ask please don't ask

" what baby" he asked I give him a small smile " it doesn't matter Isiah go out yeah take fin" he nods as he understands he shouldn't hear what's next about to come out of my mouth

The door shuts again and I stand straight up " here's the baseline take it in and shut the fuck up"

I look up and stare at Liam " mum took me said if I didn't go with her she'd hurt the shelbys and nearly forced me to marry Liam he raped me I got pregnant called polly and her and John came yet John had no clue he thought I was away for a month and I lost the baby I came back to be with my family end of anyone brings it up again I'll kill you myself with my bare hands"

I huff out a breathe " now you" I look at my mother " we never had a relationship your a manipulative bitch and I hate you and I'm glad Isiah went on those trips with my dad because he didn't ever see the real you" I blurt out looking at my mother " you e never been there and polly has been more of a mother to me and Isiah when we were growing up and helping us with everything from school work to first periods to having the sex talk that you was ment to do" I let a single tear fall " but Im glad you wasn't there because she's amazing I don't need you in my life" I look and see she crying I let out a breath I feel like I've been holding for years