Isla Jesus [peaky blinders]

Tears

I see her cheeks are stained with tears but none are evident in her eyes

" where have you been" I ask she pushes me off her but doesn't move off the wall " doing some business my mum wanted to see me in London" she says I nod " isla look-" she cuts me off by slapping me across the face it echos in the alleyway

" I deserve that" I say and she scoffs " you deserve a lot more then that" she says as she walks away I follow her she goes to the den and now it's empty just family she makes a b line for Isiah

" come on let's go" she says tugging him out " Thomas Shelby don't fucking follow me" I sigh

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Islas pov

I got into mine and Thomas house and I showered and changed into a jumper and some comfy pants and woolly socks before walking out the bathroom and see Thomas stood in the door way of the bedroom

I sit on the bed yawning " I don't want to talk" I say and he nods going to his side and gets ready for bed I turn on my side so my backs to him pull the quilt up to my kneck

And I feel a tear slip " she didn't cry" I say silently crying " what" Tommy asks me confused " she didn't cry" I say taking a deep breathe I sit up and look at him

" no one was around I went to pols it was dead except for Isiah and fin I sent fin to look for you isiah helped me up here I cried and accidentally pushed so I sent Isiah and fin to get towel then to go find esme or Lizzie

I gave birth all by myself no one way around because the one person I wanted was you and fuck know where you was when esme and Lizzie came in so did Ada and Lizzie took her to try and help clear her air ways but she was born to early" I let out a sob and he pulls me into him

" I h-held her one last time a-all by myself" I cry into his shoulder "I-it was a girl she she was a girl" he mutters as I sob at him

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I've been in bed for a few days toms given up which I'm thankful for "isla" I seee pol come in and sit on my side of the bed I put my book down and smile at her " come on love" I look down at my hands " I know everyone knows and I'm not ashamed I just if something happens pol-" she stands up and goes to my wardrobe " come on your in the den"

I nod and I get dress me and polly leave I walk into the den and sigh seeing everyone I go into Mine and johns office and sit down I sigh and start doing a paper work

" hello you" I see John walk in I put the pen down " hell Johnny boy" he laughs and puts on his coat " you coming the garrison party" I shake my head " nope thanks tho" he nods

I sit down and do some work before seeing esme being some of the kids in as she rushes around I rest my chin in my hand and watch her I smile a little but then carry on doing my work before I know it thomas is walking in " come on"

I look at him " I'm busy" he hums and comes over grabbing the pen and throwing it I laugh at him " come on" I nod taking his outstretched hand and we walk out into the street as he holds my hand " home food or garrison" he asks I shrug " garrison" I say he nods as we walk to the garrison

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Tommys pov

" isla wake up" I wake her up frantically and she jumps awake " what what" she says sitting up I pull the covers off her and there's blood like I though " omg" she whispers " isla that's to much blood to be your period" she nods " I-I" she stutters looking at the sheets I see her face to white she doesn't like blood

" isla look at me I'm going to ring pol" she nods as I walk out I hear the shower and I ring pol she's bringing esme I go back upstairs and I see she's out of the shower and pulling the sheets off throwing them in the basket " isla go downstairs sit down I'll do this" she shakes her head

" I can do it." She says I see her eyes glass over I walk up to her and wrap my arms around her " isla talk to me" she sobs into me " I don't know what's happening Tom I don't feel 100% at all I haven't since the baby and I don't know what's wrong" she cries into me I don't know what to do

She suddenly groans holding her stomach " ah" she says I steady her and pol comes in " Thomas get out" she says I nod walking downstairs I see John and Arthur " we were just invade you had to be stoped" I nod

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Islas pov

" isla your crowning" I look at her confused " with what pol" she smiles at me lightly " a baby you were ment to have twins isla" I look at her gob smacked and I feel tears fall " w-what" I cry and pol shouts " stop your gonna give birth before toms here" I nod

Polly shouts Tom I groan " a-a baby" he says as he kneels next to me I nod " push isla" I push and push till I hear them cry they are put on my chest I cry happy tears

I look at Tom and see him crying as well polly takes the baby to clean them " oh my god" I nod at him I wipe his cheeks and pol comes back with my son " hello little man" I say as my tears fall " he's so small" Tom says and I smile at him

And after all we did get our happy ending we got what we both wanted after everything all we needed was each other to be supportive and loved now we have a baby that's both of so so god help us.