Isla Jesus [peaky blinders]

Help

I get a bath and changed into leggings and a hoodie and fall asleep in the spare room. The next morning I wake up to the phone ringing " h-hello" " it's me pol love" I burst into tears and fall to the floor " I'm not safe pol I lied I'm such a fucking liar all I wanted to do was keep all of you safe" " calm down Isla tell me where you are" i take a deepbreathe " I don't know pol it's just feilds on feilds I'd have to take a walk to even find a sign can you get someone to track this at the office please pol"

" I'll try you know I will love" " if you come.come at night don't bring the boys please" she hugs in response and I put the phone down while I make something to eat then I take a walk to a little fruit shop " Isla what you doing out the house" I turn and see mum I roll my eyes " we need food mother" I get what we need and take it home and see Liam there

" I have to go away for a while for a job your mums gonna come check on you every day" i nod he kisses my cheek I give him a tight lip smile when he walks upstairs the phone goes off " hello" " in a week or two I can come down call me if any problems I'm bringing John" she hung up before I could say anything

Two weeks later liam is away on a business trip I found out I was pregnant but I keep getting cramps and stuff so I'm calling pol " hello" "p-pol I-I is anyone around you" "no not now" "can you make that trip any sooner I think I'm having a miscarriage" I groan in pain as I feel some thing go down the inside of my leg I look down and see blood "call your mums house okay and tell her to come I'll be there as soon as I come if she doesn't come go get I a warm bath" i hun in response " please hurry pol" i let's put a small sob " I'm getting John now love"

I call mums house " mum I'm having a miscarriage" " does Liam know" I swollow the sob threatening to spill " ahh. And ugh no no he doesn't found out the week he left" "alright I'll be there in a minute" I put the phone down and try to walk but it hurts and I just see blood I let out a huge sob and start balling my eyes out when the door opens " it's okay.it's okay listen we need to get you in a bath your okay" i nod we slowly but surely made it upstairs I got in the bath and mum left

" Taylor where are you" I hear John shout " I'm in the bathroom naked John do not come in" he laughs I hear them run upstairs and the door opens pol slips in pulling in a chair she moves my hair out of my face " your okay my sweet girl" she kisses my head " I don't want to be here pol he-he"I shake my head she wipes away my tears I lean into her touch " take your time we are in no rush" i nod

After a while I change into a suit and pack a bag and we get in the car John sits in the back asleep " he raped me pol I-I could g-get him off I felt so helpless I sadly was hoping Tom would find him but" I wipe a stray tear and pol holds my hand " it's okay aunt pol is here now. Have you spoke to tommy" I shake my head " I like him pol do it's just everything I care about turns to shit I can't I heared about the barmaid I'm sorry"

It doesn't take long to get to small Heath " I wanna go dads" she nods driving me no one is in so I go to sleep

A couple hours later I wake up and see the sun is rising I bathe and change into a suit and go downstairs I walk into the kitchen and the light flicks on I pull my gun out and see tommy sat at the table " how the fuck did you get in" I put it on the table turning away from him to get a glass of water " I own small Heath Isla.Where have you been" i freeze " just around"

" I'm not stupid Isla " his voice echos through the house I hand my head low and turn back around him I get a wind of whiskey and cigarettes before I know he's stood infront of me he lifts my chin " Tom please not right now" he shakes his head pointing at me " we are doing this now Isla I'm not messing around anymore" I visibly swollow

And move away from him looking at the floor " Tom please don't not right now" he steps towards me I keep my eyes fixed on the floor " no I like you Isla okay I tried to keep my mind if you and you go missing now your just back" his voice booms through the house. He grips my chin making me look at him " what happened la" I feel a tear slip " liam happened it's always been liam he's gonna come looking for me" I try push his hand off but he tilts my head up " what's that" i just don't answer " what is it la " I just let out a sob he pulls me into his chest " just tell me isla okay I'm here" I shake my head

" I can't I will when I'm ready" he hums and I feel him put his head in the crook of my kneck as he inhaled my sent I chuckle " what" he says pulling away " you" i smirk me wipes my tear stained cheeks " you coming the den" i nod " yeah i wanna see pol" he nods and we walk to the den and I sit in pols lap

" god girl nearly thought you was one of the boys" i smile at her as I rest my head on her sholder and yawn. I feel her kiss my cheek and I snuggle into her more as we watch the boys in the den " Thomas looks funny doesn't he" she laughs and nods " he always has" I let out a loud laugh and John and Arthur walk through

" pol we never get any cuddles" John complains and I give him the finger " she's mine all mine fuck off get your own" he laughs and he and Arthur walk back through the den I see Thomas telling the twins off " Thomas fucking Shelby lay off them will you" I shout he salutes me walking back in his office

" he does listen to you eH" i nod " sometimes want tea pol" she nods " please love" I make her tea kiss her cheek and go through to tommys office and I sit on his desk take a cigarette case and run out the door slamming it and into the kitchen and stand behind pol " what you-" she get cut off my tommy running in " give me it why you being like this when I get hold of you I'm gonna" he goes to go around the table I move to the other side " what gonna give me a hug like the bear you are" I laugh at him

He jumps over the table i laugh and fall backwards flipping over the couch " tommy hurt her I'll kick you in your balls" pol shouts i laugh as I go to run he pulls me back and I look at him " how can I help you Thomas" he groans in frustration as he goes in my pocket taking them " omg how did they get in there" he looks at me saying 'wtf'

" I dunno la how did they" he walks into the den i smirk and me and pol go to the garrison

I'm stood at the bar waiting for a bottle when my hair gets pulled at the ends " that belongs to me" tommy says taking the cigarette I roll my eyes " fuck tard" I say blowing the smoke in his face. I get the bottle and walk in and sit down. I zone out because I feel a tap on my head and see Tom looking at me " what Thomas" I say eyeing him " what you thinking about" i shrug " life" he nods as he taps his sholder i smirk as I put my head in it he draws circles on my hip

Thomas tickles me " T-Tom" he laughs " my names tommy say it" i laugh and " t-tommy stop" i laugh and he stops as I get my breathing back to normal " I need to take them home" i sigh walking over and shaking them lightly " come on I'll take you