Chased Heart (The Brats #1)

Chapter 37

Chapter 37

One Month

Fr: Unknown

Show yourself when you give something to me.

Natanggap ko ang message na 'yon ilang minuto matapos n'yang iwan ako sa fountain. Funny because I was crying hard but upon reading it I laughed. With the back of my hand, I covered my mouth while chuckling.

I felt like I was given hope after being hopeless.

I was broken when he told me he loved me more before than now. It only means that his feelings are not as strong and passionate as what he showed me back then. There's a crack on his love now, and the only thing I could do is dwell on it, because who am I to complain when I know it was me who put the crack?

Hindi na gaya ng dati... Ibabalik ko.

"Alanis, stop abusing yourself. Look at your hand," medyo inis na sabi ni Mommy nang makita na namang nagluluto ako sa kusina.

I looked at my hand. There are three tiny dots because of the boiling oil. Siyempre sa tuwing tumatalsik ay nalalagyan ang kamay ko. It doesn't look gross, but it's visible because my hands are white and smooth.

"I am alright, Mom!" I said a bit louder because I lost my concentration. "Don't mind me, okay? I am doing this for myself..."

"You are doing this for Azriel---"

"At the same time, I am doing this for myself!"

I groaned when I flipped the stake. It was well-cooked! Dapat ay medium cooked lang. Si Mommy kasi.

"Mom, I want him back. If I get him back, I will be happier. It's also for myself..."

Bumuntong hininga siya at uminom ng tubig.

"You know... His friend's father wants him to cancel Azriel's engagement with you..." Mom said and I turned off the griller.

I looked at her with serious eyes. I bit my lip out of shock and irritation. I just saw Francheska's father in one of the meetings I attended with my grandfather.

"And?"

"I just heard it from Farah." Mom sighed again. "You've sacrificed so much to be fine, Alanis. I hope you won't put your tears in vain if your expectations fail you..."

The only questions that matter to me... Did he agree to it? Is he in favor of that decision? To call off our engagement?

Right now, I don't know if we're still engaged. I still have the ring on me. Hindi ko lang alam sa kan'ya. Hindi ko naman napapansin.

"This way, ma'am," his secretary said when he saw me in the lobby.

I just wore a simple dress today. Nawalan ako ng gana mag-ayos dahil sa narinig ko kay Mommy. But it doesn't mean my fighting spirit was immensely affected. I am still one hundred percent into the idea of getting him back. Kaya nga narito ako kahit kontra sa dinidikta ng isip ko. My mind doesn't want me to set aside my pride and dignity, my heart shouts otherwise.

If we will always let our pride prevails, we will never be in the right places. We will never learn.

"Thank you," sabi ko nang nasa harap na ako ng opisina ni Azriel.

I have a mixture of excitement and fear in my heart.

I knocked three times to alarm him. I opened the door slowly. Sa maliit na awang ay pinasok ko ang ulo ko. I smiled when he looked up from his computer.