Chased Heart (The Brats #1)

Chapter 33

Chapter 33

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"Are you sure this is going to be your last race?" Fred asked while I am fixing my race suit for the event.

"Ah-huh. I mean, last race in events like this. I'll still drive."

Tinignan ko and cellphone ko at punong-puno ng messages ng mga pinsan ko. It's not quick that we're back closer like before, but since it's been two months, I think it's back now.

Sa tuwing nakakatanggap ako ng tawag o mga mensahe galing sa kanila, grabe ang tuwa ko. Sometime I still can't believe.

Ang magkaayos kaming lahat ay isa sa malalaking bitbit ng pusa ko. At ngayong naasam ko na... parang ang gaan-gaan ng lahat. Making them suffer or not giving them back the forgiveness they gave me was never my plan. Kung magkikimkim ako ng sama ng loob at galit, hindi talaga ako magiging maayos. That's what it is for me. But people vary.

"It's a final decision? You'll leave after your graduation?"

Binuhat ko na ang helmet ko. I nodded at Fred who looks worried.

"Yup. That's the plan. I already accomplished what I came for here..." I said with a light feeling in my heart.

After the wedding, I had to go back in Cali to continue my studies. Iyon din ang gusto kong mangyari dahil hindi naman basta-basta na gusto ko na agad mag-settle doon matapos ang nangyari ng gabi na 'yon.

I love Cali. Kaya rin siguro bumalik pa ako rito, hindi lang dahil sa pag-aaral ko, o sa event, kundi dahil gusto ko rin na bumalik pa. Bago ko iwan nang tuluyan...

Paglabas ko ng building, ang daming tao. I heard the crowd scream for my name. I am not as famous as the veteran racers I know, but I've got a reputation in this field. They like me because of my character. The attitude. The determination I show. The fighting spirit.

I wasn't revived for nothing...

"So... last race under my management?" si Fred habang sinusundan ako papunta malapit sa team namin.

Mainit kaya napapaikit ako. Ang ingay pa ng mga tao. It both excites and irritates me.

"I think so..." I whispered, feeling a bit sad.

Fred is a good friend even though he's old. He treated me like his daughter when I needed a father. He's nice. He's a good person, in general.

I sighed before entering my car. Binuksan ko ang bintana para makausap si Fred.

"Thank you for all the things you've done for me," I said before closing my car.

Habang pine-puwesto ang aking sasakyan, napansin ko na marami talagang tao. Hindi naman ako kinakabahan. Crowd has never made me feel nervous and scared. Para sa akin, tao lang naman sila. I mean, sino ba sila, 'di ba?

I kept stepping on my accelerator to make a tremendous sound. Marami ring sumali, pero hindi naman ako kinakabahan. As I said, I drive for fun, because it feels fulfilling every time I ride. There's really something in driving that makes me feel so satisfied. Whenever I see blurry images in my window, I feel relaxed. I feel like no one can ever chase me. I feel so safe.

The race started and I feel ecstatic the whole time. Sa tuwing may nalalagpasan ay natutuwa ako. This is the only moment I could drive past the cars at this full speed. Nang hindi ako mahuhuli.

I used driving to cope. I feel like the cars I drive past are my problems that will, later on, vanish with them, too, as I continue to speed forward. Pakiramdam ko ay matatakasan ko lahat ng mga problema ko. Because before, the only thing I do whenever I could no longer hold on is to run away. Because it's what my heart wants.