Desiring Chances (Completed)

Chapter 29

CHAPTER 29

Napapikit ako ng mariin habang nakaupo sa kubeta. Kusa na lang tumulo ang luha ko, hindi ko alam kung sa saya o sa takot.

Pero alam ko sa sarili ko na masaya ako, masaya ako na may buhay sa loob ng tiyan ko.

Takot ako sa magiging reaksyon ni Sky pag nalaman niya, ano ang sasabihin niya? Tatanggapin niya ba ang anak namin o hindi? Paano kung hindi?

Kaya ko naman kung hindi niya tanggap, ang kinakatakot ko lang ay baka hindi niya matanggap. Kasi... baka maging hadlang ako sa taong gusto niya? Yung gusto niyang pakasalan.

Napakapit ako sa sink ng banyo at saka tumayo, tinuyo ko rin ang luha sa mata ko. Ngayong alam kong buntis ako, kailangan kong alagaan ang sarili ko. Kailangan ko siyang alagaan kahit na anong mangyari.

Whatever happens, I'll keep the baby. I'll keep it whether he like it or not. He's not the one who's going to decide, ako ang ina. Kung hindi niya tatanggapin, then so be it. I can raise my baby all by myself, hindi ko naman kailangan ang tulong niya. Being with my baby is enough, I know he or she is going to gave me some strength to continue my life.

Lumabas ako ng kwarto at napatingin kina Vien at Andrea na naka-upo sa kama na kinauupahan ko.

The two of them look so serious, I guess they already know the result. The instinct of this two really.

"Ikaw na talaga susunod kay Rheane? Should I ready the bachelorette party then?"

I shook my head and sat on the bed. I'm still doubting, saka hindi naman kami ang magdedesisyon niyon. What if Sky doesn't want to marry me? Na alam kong totoo, ayoko namang siyang pilitin sa gusto ng mga kaibigan ko.

I can handle myself, I know that. I can handle raising my child alone, it's hard but I can see my future. Alam kong kaya ko kahit wala siya, masakit oo pero mas masakit kapag nagsama kami na hindi naman niya ako mahal. Ayokong pati ang anak ko ay magdusa dahil lang sa katangahan ko sa tatay niya.

"What's the matter? Sa tingin ko naman resonableng tao si Sky, I'm sure he'll marry you"

Umiling ako at napangiti ng mapait. "I doubt that... he wanted to marry someone"

"And that someone is who?"

"No idea"

"No idea, yet you jump into conclusions again. What if ikaw pala yun? What if you're that someone who he wanted to marry at the first place?"

I tottered my head and drop myself on the bed and squeezed my eyes shut, resting my mind for a second.

"That's impossible, he never wanted to marry me. Not in a lifetime"

Vien sighed and shook his head. "I really don't like, love. It's too complicated"

"Right, I should've known it at the first place since I've been taking care of all of you. But I still ended up with such a messy and shitty relationship"

I slightly chuckled at Andrea. "Since when did you learn to be like that Andy? Since he left you?"

She looked at me distastefully and throw me a pillow. "At least he gave me a reason a reason to live my life to the fullest. Ikaw? Niloko na nga iniwan pa"

Nanlaki ang mata ko at napabangon na lang. "Oh my god! Is this our friend Andrea Cecilia? Did you just roll your eyes on me lady? Seriously!?"

Vien chuckled and shook her head. "Lalaki nga naman, nagdadala talaga ng gulo sa buhay ng babae. Pati na rin buhay pfft"

The three of us was too absentminded to notice what time it was. Nakalimutan naming nasa kasal pala kami ni Rheane at nakalabas lang ng pumasok si Kryza sa kwarto at pinalabas kaming tatlo.