Desiring Chances (Completed)

Chapter 5

CHAPTER 5

"NCIOLE please... kumain ka naman oh"

Hindi ko pinansin si Kry at umiyak lang, I was lying in my bed. After what happened yesterday I drove myself to Kryza's house, hindi ko alam kung anong magagawa ko kung pumunta ako sa bahay ni Andrew o sa bahay namin. Baka kung ano pang magawa ko.

"L-leave m-me a-alone, Kryza. Just please... leave me"

I felt her hands in my back, mas napa-iyak ako dahil sa ginawa niya. Umupo ako at saka siniksik ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya.

"I-it's h-hurts Kry... how can they do that? Ang akala ko ba mahal n-nila ako? Bakit nila ako niloko? Bakit nila yun ginawa sa akin? Hindi naman ako masama diba? Naging mabait naman ko eh, hindi ko naman sila binibigyan ng sakit sa ulo... p-pero bakit ganun? B-bakit niloko parin nila ako?" I sobbed in her chest while she caressing my head.

I felt comfortable crying in her, I told her not to say to anyone about this. Ayokong pati sila mag-aalala sa kalagayan ko, ayokong makita nila akong ganito.

"Minsan yung taong pinagkakatiwalaan natin yun pa ang nanglokoko sa atin. But always remember this Nicole, everyone can betray you but don't let yourself betrayed you. Because you can always count on yourself not to people. Hindi sa lahat ng oras kaya mo silang sandalan, don't let yourself fight against with your feelings. Not this time honey"

I let my tears out. Hindi ko kayang gumalaw dahil ang sakit sakit, bawat galaw ko naalala ko lahat-lahat. Bawat tingin ko sa paligid naiiyak ako at naninikip ang dibdib ko sa sakit.

Ilang araw na akong walang kain kaya kanina pa ako pinapakain ni Kry, kanina pa din ako tanggi ng tanggi sa kaniya.

"Shh... everything is going to be just fine" She whispered.

I just sobbed and cried until I dozed off. I woke up feeling so unwell, my eyes are sore. I can't move properly.

I force myself to get up, I went to the bathroom and get myself naked and showered.

Hindi dapat ako nandito at nagmumukmok, hindi ako ganitong babae. Malakas ako at kaya kong harapin lahat ng to... sana.

"Buti naman at lumabas ka na, let's eat" 

Malumanay akong umupo sa harap ni Kryza, I can feel my body heat. Mukhang magkakasakit ako. I promise to Shay but I think I'll broke it too, promises really are meant to be broken.

"Kumusta? Not feeling well, are we?"

I stared at my plate. Usually, Andrew make me breakfast every morning. Looks like I'll get myself used being alone this time. I felt my eyes watered so I blinked twice to stop it.

"Y-yeah"

I heard her sighed and stood up before getting the medicine. "Kung hindi ka ba naman kumain ng isang araw sinong hindi magkakasakit? Wala ka pang inom na tubig, gusto mo na bang mamatay ha?"

I lowered my head, slowly my tears began to fall. My heart is clenching, why does it hurts everytime I think about him? Hindi pa naman ako nawawala sa sarili ko diba?

"Come on! Stop crying! Nababahala na ako, hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko. Baka matawag ko ang iba sa ginagawa mo"

I bit my lower lip to stop myself from sobbing, my tears pooled my eyes and it was falling in my plate.

"Stop it, Nicole please"

I slightly nodded before wiping my tears. I just can't cry here and get myself sick because of them. I know it's hurts but I should get myself up to show them I'm okay despite of them betraying me, for fooling me.