patiently waiting for you (Completed)✔️

8~ His past.

Every day for the past three weeks, I've been hanging on to the string of hope that Aman will be awake soon, I believe with Allah he'll but I can't help but get scared also. I've practically been living in the hospital, I can't really let Aman out of my sight for a second without worrying. Moreover I don't want to go back home, I don't want pity from anyone, it's all a test from Allah and it will be over soon, Aman's dad convinced me to come stay with them but I declined, so I've been living in the hospital with my husband, they thought I declined because I'll feel uncomfortable with them, they informed me of the house Aman bought for the both of us, and asked if I'll like to stay there for some times, I also didn't agree to that because if Aman bought it for both us I'll like for us to occupy it together insha Allah.

Aman was transferred into a private room about two weeks ago, I just finished praying in the hospital masjid, I'm heading back to the room.

I sat on the bed opposite to where Aman was lying, I personally asked for an extra bed so I can stay with Aman fully. I cleaned Aman's face, body with a towel soaked in warm water, when I finished, I recited almost all the dua I knew on him, this has become a daily routine since I've been staying with him.

I looked at him intently, while deeply asleep, he's still very handsome, with his deep black beards, full eyebrow, his dark prayer mark, calm looking face that brought peace to me whenever I looked at him. I don't know how or when but this few weeks of me taking care of him, I've fallen in love with him, I've fallen in love with my husband, I don't know if it's possible for someone to fall in love without the other party doing anything but that's my case here, I keep falling day by day and I can't just wait to see him open his eyes,

"Aman, wake up soon, will you?, a lot of people are waiting to see you open your eyes you know" I said tearily while stroking his beards,

He has really been through a lot, he's very strong to have been able to hold up to this moment, I was still stroking his beards when I remembered what yusra told me three weeks ago.

Flashback:

"we never thought it would come back, we thought he's over it" yusra said,

"what is that" I asked her,

"it all started on that joyous day which turned sour" she said,

" I don't really remember what happened as I was still young, but according to what Dad told me, it started on Aman's first wedding"

she said,

I nudged her to continue,

"Aman has always been a very free spirited, funny and loving person, he has been a person that interacts very well with others but after that day, everything changed"

It looks like she was having a hard time saying it,

"you don't have to tell me now, if you aren't comfortable with it" I said,

"no, it's better I told you, we made a mistake of not telling you beforehand" she said,

"okay" I nodded when I saw she was insistent,

"preparations has been taking place in our house, everyone was so happy, most especially my mom, the happiness was very evident on her face, it's been long she smiled but that day she smiled so hard, showing clearly the beauty that was always hidden under her sad face, Aman was very happy she was happy that day, he could do anything to bring a smile to mom's face.
since when mom has been diagnosed with cardiac sarcoma(heart disease), she has been very gloomy, the doctor told her she had only 5 years to live, but we have been doing everything possible to bring a smile to her face, Dad too has been very supportive, so when she heard Aman was going to get married, she was the happiest of all" she said,

I noticed tears starting to form in yusra's eyes,

"you can stop you know" I said, I know I wasn't the one that went through that but I was already feeling an ache in my heart,

"no, it's okay, I can continue" she said,

"on that Saturday, everyone has been busy making arrangements for the nikkah that would take place and the walimah that would follow, the groom was also happy he was getting married, everyone in our house was, the nikkah held in the masjid, so all the men went over there. Then it was time to bring the bride to our home, Aman went to the bride's house to bring her home after the knot was tied, though he didn't know her too well but he promised to love her with all he had and build a loving family with her, when he went to her house, they took him to where the bride was, but when he got there......." She said as she cried hardly,

"yusra it's okay, it's okay" I consoled her,

"she was dead" she said spilling all the tears she was holding,

"inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi rajiun" I said,

"Aman was so devastated, he couldn't think of what else to do except escaping from everyone, he drove off without anyone knowing where he was going to, mom and dad were thrown into a state of chaos, It was suppose to be a happy event but it ended up turning into the most grievous event you could ever think of, after thinking and searching endlessly for Aman, dad received a call that Aman was involved in a very fatal accident, he tried his possible best, to hide this fact from mom knowing her health condition, but unfortunately she overheard him talking to one of the surgeons operating on him, when she heard that considering she had a weak heart, she had a heart attack and died at that spot.
upon all this happenings, dad tried to be strong for I and Aman. when Aman woke up, he continuously asked for mom, dad wanted to hide it from him but he didn't have a choice than to tell him, it affected him greatly.

Though he was able to heal from his physical afflictions, but his mental one's never went away, it started affecting him, doctors said he was having PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), dad convinced him to visit a therapist but he didn't heed, he was afraid of letting his feelings out to anyone, he blamed himself for mom's predicaments, he also promised to never get married again but when he showed a lot of interest in you, we were very happy that he has finally agree to come out of his shell" she said,

"but why does this have to happen today again" she said with tears spilling,

"Allah has a reason for everything yusra, it'll all be fine" I said holding back my tears as I hugged her.

I later convinced her to leave for home, that I'll take care of Aman, she didn't want to give in but after much persuasion, she agreed, I boarded a taxi for her, and she left.

Flashback ends.

I didn't realize that tears was already dripping on his face from my eyes, I quickly cleaned it,

"I promise to stand by you through thick and thin" I said as I pecked his fore head,

I noticed a swift movement, I quickly turned my head towards the direction but when it didn't reoccur, I thought I was hallucinating, after a few moment, I saw Aman moved his arm
,
"Aman, Aman, Aman" I called out to him,

Then I noticed that he started shaking vigorously, and the heart monitor started beeping loudly and started showing straight lines, I ran out to get the doctor and the nurses, they locked me out of the room when they arrived.
I was looking through the small opening on the door, I saw them placing a defribillator on his chest,

I was really very scared at this moment, I prayed inwardly for him, I hope nothing bad happens.