patiently waiting for you (Completed)✔️

5~ Yes or No?

"Fatima, do you have an answer now?" mum asked me as I was about to leave for work,

"should I answer or not?" I thought to myself, I guess I won't answer now, I've to let my mind be in a right state before I will,

"no" I replied,

"ok whatever your reply is, don't be late about it, I'm sure Aman's family is anxious to hear your reply also" mum said,

"ok" I replied, I wanted to say more but I decided to stop at that, moreover I'm already getting late for work,
"masalam mum" I said as I left the house for work.

I wasn't able to concentrate at work today, I've been wallowing in my thoughts but something for sure I know is that my heart is drawn so much to Aman now, I don't know if it's because of the dream or what but I feel like I should accept this proposal, I'm driving home now and I've decided I'll accept,

" Ya Allah, ya Allah guide me" I said as I pulled through our compound.

****

"Yes?!"

"Did I hear that right?" mum said as she widened her eyes,

"yes you did mum" I said already getting sick of mum's drama,

"can you repeat it again for me to hear clearly" mum said,

"YES!, I ACCEPT THE PROPOSAL",

"Allahuma barikk, allahuma barikk, allahumma barikk" mum said turning it into a rhyme, circling me, and hugging me tightly,

"should I tell you why I always wanted you to get married early" mum said sounding emotional,

I nodded in affirmation,

"I don't want you to turn out like me" mum said,

"what do you mean mum" I said,

"I always felt like my inability to conceive much was due to the fact that I married late, maybe if I married earlier I would've ..." she was about to complete the statement when I cut her off,

"don't ever say that again mum, always look at the good side of situations not the bad, if you've had married earlier for instance you won't have met dad, and you'll never be able to have either I or imran, even if you had many other children"
"unless maybe you don't like the life you have now" I added,

" No habibty, I love you all so much, I'm very inconsiderate to have thought like that" she said,

"Apart from that, I strongly wanted you to get married early because it's sunnah, I'm so happy right now, I can't wait to inform your dad about this great news" she said as she hugged me again and dashed out to look for her phone so she could inform dad,

I smiled as I watched her go, I felt like I've made the right decision, I'll gladly accept this proposal on and on again to witness the joy I saw on mum's face.

AMAN'S POV

"Isn't it time for you to forget about the past and move on with your life" Dad said,
"I know it's hard but there's nothing Allah can't solve" he continued,

"ok I'll try" I replied even though I knew that I can't try, it can only get worst and it's already getting bad,

"Don't forget, tomorrow we are meeting Alhaji abdulrahman's daughter, and no excuses this time" he said,

"ok sir" I said, I just had to agree this time around, but I'll make sure whosoever it's rejects my proposal because I don't want to be a burden to anyone, my thoughts then wandered to the young lady who brought her little brother for checkup, I remembered how light shone through her eyes, I lowered my gaze quickly before I'd be lost in it, I thought I'll never see her again but in aadil and aisha's wedding I saw her, I recognized her immediately I saw her not knowing she was yusra's sister Fatima she always talked about.

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"sister Fatima" I heard yusra said when a girl walked down, so I looked up and found out it was her, it was her I'm proposing to, why does this gives me a mixed feeling?, "I'll make sure I don't talk so she'll get irritated and reject the proposal" I said to myself.

"isn't it time for Aman and Fatima to get to know each other" Dad said,

"must we have any conversation?" I thought to myself, this is the hardest part for me but I decided I won't say anything so she'd just reject me.

"uhmm don't you have any question to ask?" she said sounding irritated,

little does she knows I'm doing it on purpose, I'm scared to let anyone in, I thought she'll get angry, stand up and announce she isn't interested again like how the other girls I've met did, but no she took it upon herself to ask me questions and I found myself answering against my will, masha Allah to say I'm impressed would be an understatement,

"can I see your face?" I don't know when I asked that question but I'm glad I did, as I looked at her face I felt my heart melting, it's been long I felt like this, I felt like I should look at her forever,

"time's up" I heard her Dad said and I was really grateful for that because I wouldn't really like to look at her for long because she's not my mahram yet.

I stayed quiet till we left again, not because of my initial plan but because my perspective has fully changed and something is telling me it's time for me to let someone else in,

"but what if I'm not able to bear it?" I asked myself.

Initially I wanted her to reject my proposal, but now I want her to accept it badly, I want to give myself a chance to love again maybe I can overcome my fears by Allah's will, but it's too late now, I didn't even portray a good character that would make her accept me, I didn't even bother to show her I was interested, I'm very sure she won't accept but something deep inside me is still praying she does, I was still thinking of all these when yusra barged into the room,

"she said yes" she said,

"what do you mean" I said,

"sister Fatima said yes to your proposal" she said,

"yusra, stop playing pranks on me I'm not in for that now" I said,

"ok if you don't believe me, ask daddy, he's in the living room" she said while folding her arms,

I didn't even know if I teleported or not, I just knew I found myself in front of Dad in the living room,

"is it true Fatima accepted my proposal" I asked him while panting heavily because of how fast I ran,

"yes, it's true son, Alhamdulillah" he said,

"Alhamdulillah" I said too, then proceeded to do sujudul shukr, but I was still thinking "why did she accept the proposal regardless of how I acted?"

"Daddy I told you sister Fatima is amazing, when was the last time we saw brother aman like this" yusra said,

"indeed she's, I can't remember the last time I saw him like this too" Dad said, the two started getting emotional,

I realized that I've really hurt this two unknowingly and it's time for me to set things right with everyone, I want to stop hurting people by Allah's will and let the past remain in the past,

"but the question is, does the past wants to remain in the past?"

"Dad can you please make the wedding happen as soon as possible if it's okay by Fatima and her family, it's time for me to set everything right" I said,

"sure sure son and may Allah make it easy for you" Dad said,

"ameen" we all said in unison,

"I'll inform her parents now" dad said as he picks up his phone to make a call,

"I pray she agrees" I thought to myself.