OUR SWEET VIOLENCE [TOXIC SERIES #1]

CHAPTER 49

Toxic, something we do or we have in our life. it can't just be a form of substance, it can be a person in our life, or some habit we do that disturbs other people. and sometimes, it can be ourselves.

we always see toxic in other, but do we see, toxicity in ourselves?

Gumising ang dalaga na nakasimangot, nalulungkot ito. ikaw ba naman na close sa parents mo, ay mahihiwalay ng ilang linggo? habang nakahiga ang dalaga sa kanilang malaking kama, napaisip nalang siya.

is she really gonna spend her entire life back here in Mexico?

''Khiona.'' tawag ni Alyxcs, napatingin si Khiona sa binata na may luha ang mga mata, and yes, this fragile girl is getting home sick. 

''what's wrong?'' tanong ng binata, naupo ito sa tabi niya habang nakahiga ang dalaga. ''i miss my family.'' she said, Alyxcs nodded. 

''well, do you wanna go home?''tanong ng binata, habang pinunasan niya ang konting luha sa mata nito. ''we can now?'' gulat na tanong nito. 

''hindi ako makakauwi ng Pinas right away, i mean, pwede ka mauna if you want and wait for me.'' ani nito. 

''but it'll be a month, i don't wanna do long distance.'' pag iinarte nito. 

''hindi naman long distance, uuwi rin naman ako agad.''

''how are you sure?'' 

napatigil bigla ang binata. 

''huh?''

''how are you sure nauuwi ka talaga?'' tanong ng dalaga, she's scared for everything, feeling niya baka hindi na umuwi ang binata pag nauna siya sa Pilipinas. 

''uuwi ako, ano ka ba.'' ngiting tugon nito, with a worried tone on his voice. ''saan mo ba nakukuha yan na hindi ako uuwi? Khiona naman.'' paglalambing nito. 

''Hubby..'' she whined and pouted, hinila naman ito ni Alyxcs at niyakap. ''isasako kita eh.'' ani ng binata. 

matapos makausap ni Khiona ang kuya nitong lalake, hindi siya mapakali, what if he won't leave Mexico at all???

''kasi naman, you're here na.'' she pouted.

''can i ask something?''

''yes?'' tanong ng binata. 

''if we get married, saan tayo titira?''tanong ng dalaga, Alyxcs nodded and sighed. hinawakan niya ang kamay ng dalaga. ''ayaw mo ba dito?''tanong nito. 

''see...'' she said. 

''i mean, if you want sa inyo tayo, sure! but... you know i have a life here too.'' he smiled. 

''you just came back here after 11 years, what life do you have?''tanong ng dalaga. ''your friends are there, i am there, i mean... your family is here... i mean.. considering the relationships with your family.. i...'' hindi makasagot ang dalaga, she just sighed. 

''never mind.'' she said. 

''no, tell me.'' 

''i have been close to my parents ever since, you... you lost connection with them when you turned 18.'' she said. ''please, Alyxcs.. i don't wanna live here, i wanna be near my mom and dad.'' she said. 

''i get what you're talking about, but they're my family, i might have lost connection with them from time to time, but i love them.'' he said. 

''i get you, why are we so complicated.'' she sighed, all sadden and worried.

''hey, we'll work this out.'' he said.

''when? when you're done with your dad's business? na alam kong hindi naman matatapos.'' she said, napatingin naman si Alyxcs sakanya, napataas pa ng kilay ang binata.