Too Good to be True (JHxOC) (J-Hope X Original Character)

Chapter 23: I'm Coming to Get My Girl

MyHope: Only you.

MyHope: I know that my name in your contacts says that I'm your hope, but you have it backwards.

MyHope: YOU are MY hope, Princess. You are all that I have ever wanted.

MyHope: You are all that I didn't even know that I needed.

MyHope: But I do. I need you, El.

Was it possible to babble in a text message? Because that kinda seemed like what he was doing. I wanted to talk to him so badly. I was so used to his presence. I was so used to talking to him. He had quickly become not just the man that I was going to marry, but my best friend. Or at least....he was.

MyHope: You know that I can see when you've read my messages, right?

MyHope: I don't want to push you, sweetheart. I just want to talk to you.

MyHope: Please, Eloise.

Me: I didn't think that it was possible for somebody to babble in a text message.

MyHope: ELOISE!

Me: Please tell the guys to stop texting me. They're driving me crazy.

MyHope: I'm sorry. They just wanted to apologize.

Me: I get that they wanted to apologize, but Jungkook sending me the word sorry 5,000 times, that he turned into text art, that looks like a chocolate chip cookie, is taking it a bit far, Hoseok.

MyHope: I'm sorry, Princess. I'll ask him to stop. He just feels bad. Jungkook is like an empath, I think. He's always felt everyone's emotions more than anyone else. So this is really getting to him.

Me: I'm sorry.

MyHope: You have nothing to be sorry for, Ellie. This is all on me. I didn't have to take their stupid bet. And I wish more than anything else in the world, that I could take it back.

Me: But you can't.

MyHope: No. I can't. You're right. And I've lost the best thing that has ever been mine because of my own stupidity.

Me: Rizzo? I did bring him with me.

MyHope: ....what?

Me: Are you upset that you lost Rizzo?

MyHope: ....You know that I meant you, Eloise.

Me: I know. But you didn't. Not yet.

My phone immediately started ringing. I knew it was him without even looking. Did I really want to answer it? I wasn't sure. I had no idea what was going on in my head right now. I couldn't seem to grasp onto one thought and pull it towards me without another knocking the first out of the way.

The things that Hoseok and all of the guys said made sense, I guess. I wanted to believe them. But my heart was still broken. I didn't know if I was ready to forgive him, yet.

While the internal monolog was going on, his call went to voicemail.

MyHope: Please answer the phone, Ellie. I need to hear your voice.

Me: I'm not ready, Hoseok. Not yet. And I can't promise that when I am, you'll like my decision.

To be honest, I wanted to answer. I wanted to go to him. I wanted him to hold me so that everything would feel better.