How to Stop an Obsessive Love?

Chapter 15: Looking For Clues

Ashleene's PoV:

"Hey, is that true na wala na rito si Bree?"

"Yes. As far as I remember at base na rin sa Dad ko, something happened kaya nagtransfer na sya."

"Aish. It's so sudden. Sayang naman. She's a great friend. Maganda pa at mabait."

My eyes widen in shock and my mouth gaped nang marinig ko ang ilang usap-usapan ng mga kaklase ko. Mabilis na inilibot ko ang aking paningin sa loob ng classroom. I quickly searched for her seat but sadly, wala na nga pati na rin ang pangalang nakalagay sa kanyang upuan.

Bagsak ang balikat na napaupo. I heaved a deep sigh. Fuck it. Why do I feel na may kinalaman ako sa biglang pagtransfer nya? I guess, it's my fault.

Kahit ilang weeks pa lang kaming magkakaklase, kaibigan na ang turing ko sa kanya. Hindi ko maiwasang malungkot. Hindi man lang nagsabi sa akin si Bree na magtatransfer na pala sya sa ibang school. Huli na pala naming pag-uusap yun.

I quickly stopped in my track when suddenly, something crossed my mind. Napahigpit ang pagkakapit ko sa aking ballpen.

Is there any chance na lahat nang sinabi nya sa akin ay totoo? Did Freyja really did that to her? Or worse, baka nga sya pa ang may dahilan kung bakit nagtransfer si Bree.

Napahilot naman ako sa aking sentido. Fuck. My head are starting to hurt just by thinking that. I shouldn't just jump with the conclusion. Mas better siguro kung kokomprontahin ko sya.

Napaayos ako ng upo nang mapansin kong pumasok na ang prof namin. Abnormal Psychology pala ang subject namin.

"Good morning class." She greeted. "Today, we'll talk about the other section of our subject, psychological and mental disorders."

I heaved a deep sigh and started to cleared out my mind. Kailangan kong magfocus. Inilabas ko na ang aking notebook. I'm ready for taking notes.

"One of the known disorders is schizophrenia. It is the most common psychotic disorder. Patients with this condition experience changes in behavior, delusions and hallucinations that last longer than six months." My prof lectured out. Meron din syang ipinakitang mga illustrations at simulations.

"Next is the Obsessive Love Disorder. Are you familiar with that?" Napatango-tango naman ako dahil don. Yes. It's quite familiar to me. And I bet, ganon din ang mga kaklase ko.

"Obsessive love disorder refers to a condition where you become obsessed with one person you think you may be in love with. You might feel the need to protect your loved one obsessively, or even become controlling of them as if they were a possession."

"You know guys, if you have experienced a partner that have an obsession with you, Cut it off. Meaning, makipagbreak ka na." Dagdag pa ni Prof. But this time, seryoso na ang kanyang mukha. She sat in front of the table.

"It's not healthy. Obsession is toxic. Red flag in a relationship. Stop romanticizing it. It's not love anymore." Mabilis na napahinto ako dahil don. Fuck. For an unknown reason, parang tinamaan ako don.

"From the base studies, mataas ang chance na ang reason kung bakit pinapatay ng tao ang kanyang partner is because of too much love. With that, pati ang mga malalapit sa kanila ay nadadamay." Napailing na lang ako sa kawalan. It's quite scary. Kawawa yung mga nadadamay.

"On the other side, kung may kakilala kayo na nakakaexperience ng ganon, you may recommend them to a psychiatrist or a psychologist."

Through the whole discussion ay parang walang pumapasok sa isipan ko after that. It's like my mind is flying somewhere. I can't help but to think about what my prof. had said.