HER

𝙿𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝟹𝟿

♪ᴄᴏғғᴇᴇ ʙʏ ʙᴇᴀʙᴀᴅᴏᴏʙᴇᴇ♪

                                      Tʀᴏʏ

I always hoped to find someone I was deeply in love with. Someone to spend the rest of my life with.

And I did. I found her.

"Why don't you sit down love?" Ma suggested, patting the chair beside her.

I shook my head at her then continued to pace back and forth in the waiting area.

I was terrified. The doctors ignored me when they'd pass by. I was completely useless. Once again, I had let her down.

"Troy!" Nina called my name as she entered the waiting room. I looked up at her, tears forming in my eyes. She ran to my side and held me. "It's okay. She's going to be okay." She whispered, comforting me.

"I-I can't lose her Nina." I spoke through choked sobs.

"Roxy's a fighter. She'll be fine." She said pulling me in tighter.

I nodded in response, lifting my head from her shoulder so that I could stand upright again. "You're right." I agreed with her, wiping the tears from my cheek.

She smiled softly at me before sitting down next to ma. I stayed standing.

I wanted to believe it, that she would be okay but after everything she's been through, was it possible?

A nurse entered the room and I ran up to her immediately. "What did the doctor say? Is she okay? Can I see her? Please, I need to see her."

"Sorry I can't share any personal information with you neither can I let you see her, you're not family but I can assure you she's being taken care of." She explained with a blank expression.

I'm not family?! I was the closest thing she had to family.

"Please, I'm all she has left." I begged.

She tilted her head, clicked her tongue then sighed. "We'll allow you to see her for a bit." She finally gave in and I sighed in relief. "We just need to run one or two tests firsts." She added quickly.

Tests? Why'd they have to run tests? Was something wrong.

"Tests? Why?!" I questioned.

"Why don't you go home and get some rest. You can visit her first thing in the morning." She said, ignoring my question.

"No! I'm not leaving her, not again." I clenched my fists.

She nodded in understanding then left the room. I turned to Ma and Nina slowly and they watched me with concerning eyes.

I walked over to the seats on the other side of the room and sat on one. My legs immediately started shaking, knowing that I couldn't control it so instead I just held my head in my hands.

I was losing her. I could feel it.

                                       Rᴏxʏ

I lied in my assigned hospital bed with closed eyes, my hands resting on my stomach.

I told the doctors about the bleeding and the losing weight situation, which seemed to be the only symptoms I could mention until I passed out last night at my own party.

I hadn't drank any alcohol neither have I done anything risky.

They recommended a Pap test and I agreed to it. Maybe I should have agreed ages ago already.

Suddenly the door of the handle turned slowly making me sit upright in my bed.

After what Luke had try to do me last night, I've become very paranoid.. like I was on the verge of dying and I could only stay alive if my eyes were opened.

The door opened eerily and in walked one of the many nurses who had been checking up on me through the night.

She looked at me and smiled. "Are you ready?"

I wasn't. I was horrified.

I nodded in response.

Next she adjusted the bed so that my upper body was lying down. She also placed my feet on stirrups to make it more comfortable.

"Open up a bit for me." She said, referring to my legs and I gulped.

"This won't hurt. It might be a bit uncomfortable though." She told me when she had noticed my discomfort.

I inhaled deeply and opened my legs a bit.

"Just a bit more."

I did as she said and almost immediately she inserted a speculum into me. She said it was to hold the vaginal walls opens.

I lied my head down and started panting. Deep slow breaths, I kept telling myself.

I felt a long, thin swab being brushed against my cervix and I held tightly onto the sheets and shut my eyes tightly.

"All done." She said, standing up.

I opened my eyes and lifted my head slightly. "Wait.. that's it?"

"You did really well Roxy. As for your results, I'll inform you about them within 1-3 weeks so please be patient and just rest." She explained as she removed the stirrups.

"When will I be discharged?" I asked her, sitting up slightly.

"After noon." She replied.

"Is he still here?" I asked about Troy and she nodded with a a sweet smile. "He's sleeping in the waiting room, the young man's refused to go home with his grandmother."

"Can I see him?" I asked and she gave me a stern look. "Only in the morning. You need to rest." She said.

I glanced over at the clock against the wall and it read 4:55. Technically it was morning.

"Please, I won't be able to get any rest without him." I explained and she sighed. "I'll call him up." She said, turning the big light off before walking out.

I turned to my side and lied in the darkness. He would have questions and I wouldn't be able to answer him. I had lied and kept things from him and it seemed too late to tell him about everything. It would crush him.

And if I was going to be okay, maybe.. he wouldn't get crushed.

Maybe everything would turn out just fine.

The clock struck five and then the door opened. "Baby?" He whispered in a tired voice.

I looked over my shoulder and smiled at him. "Hey pretty boy."

He gasped and jumped onto the bed, planting kisses all over my face. "You scared me, I thought I was going to lose you." He said looking deeply into my eyes.

"You never will." I assured him, taking his hand and kissing it softly.

He spooned me and we lied in the darkness.

Please God, let everything be just fine. I prayed silently in my head.

I loved him and I wanted to spend the rest my life with him. I wanted to go to prom with him. I wanted to graduate with him. I wanted to go to university with him. I wanted to marry him and have kids with him some day. I wanted to spend forever with him. Only him.

"Everything's going to be okay, right?" He questioned, with an ounce of uncertainty in his voice.

I nodded. "Everything's going to be okay."

He squeezed my hand and sighed in relief.